krisgrace

Thank you Angelic. You have always been there for me. I am really hoping this weekend is going to be a stepping stone for me. I am going to call the rehab place for an appt. today.

Angelic17

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Kristin)))))))))))))) )))))))))))))))))))))
Everything is going to be alright. You have to really want this. I mean REALLY WANT IT.
The physical part is just a few days of discomfort. The mental addiction lasts alot longer. You really need to rationalize with yourself. Tell yourself that the drug you crave will kill you and ruin your life, and possibly cause you to lose everything you have, including your children. Cause that's the truth. It holds you captive. I know just how you feel. You have been struggling with this for so long now. You deserve to be free. Did you ever try suboxone? Has your doctor discussed any of this with you? Have you even seen an addiction specialist? Sorry about the questions, I just wish I could help. I know, it's crazy. It's so hard to find the proper care when your in that vulnerable state, and frightened at the same time. There are always money issues, and insurance issues. FIGHT for your recovery and sobriety. I know you can and will do this. It takes time. It took me a while to get clean, I tried a few times before I did it. But, once I was done, I was done. And everytime I think of using I remember how hard it was to get where I am, and I don't want to lose all of my clean time. Hang in there. Keep me posted on your situation. Wishing you Inner Peace, Angel

chairmanma084

what the ****...krisgrace, this doctor has you on a host of meds and has obviously never treated withdrawal. it's not just physical. clonidine just gets your blood press. down and drowsy enough to forget about some of the symptoms.

SEE A MEDICAL DOCTOR that is well-versed in opiate detox. Clonidine is used in many facilities to treat WD symptoms but is no substitute for SUBOXONE if you are that bad off. Forget about the stigma and check into REHAB if you're having this hard of a time. it will help. those people know how to deal with addiction. if you're sick as hell, they'll get you not sick in a healthy way. they'll also help you learn some things about how to deal with life in sobriety.

what you are doing right now might as well be COLD TURKEY. it's not gonna kill you but it sure as hell isn't healthy or remotely comfortable.

PLEASE take care of yourself,

chair

krisgrace

I really dont want to be addicted to SUBXONE when I get off the pain pills either. I hope this all works!!

krisgrace

Angelic,
I will remember everything you have told me while I am going through this...
Thanks for everything.

Angelic17

Kristin, I didn't get addicted to suboxone. I used it when I needed it, and I took a bit less than was prescribed. 4 mgs kept me from withdrawals for 2 days. I was supposed to take 8mg suboxone 3x a day. I didn't do that, and don't get me wrong, I am not telling you to self medicate. That's what got you into this problem in the first place. I am just letting you know that you don't have to get addicted if you don't want to. Suboxone is made to help addicts get off of drugs without suffering. When I was coming off, If I felt alright, I just didn't take anything. I wanted off of everything, and I am there now. I wish this for you. Your young and beautiful, and your a mom. Believe me, when my son got addicted it just took me to my knees. Nothing has ever hurt me more. In other words, set a good example for your kids. When you get older you will realize what I mean. They will follow everything you do, and you think they don't know what's going on, but they figure it out as they get older. Trust me. Addiction is hereditary. And it runs in my family big time. I wish you the best, and wish I could do something more to help you. Your mind is very powerful, and if you think you Can, or if you think you Cant, either way, Your right. Think Positive, and know you can do this. PM me if you ever need a person to talk to. Hugs, Angel