Suboxone Blues
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Suboxone Blues
Hi All,
I just need to throw this out there. I haven't posted on here in quite some time because I was out runnin again. A LOT has happened since.
Last fall (Oct 11th) I was in the thralls of my heroin addiction. Something I never thought I would do..... I drove my dealer down to the Bronx to pick up shipment. I was very nervous. 15 min from home we get pulled over and busted. 798 bags of stuff. DEA had been watching him. He got 7 years in prison, I was allowed to go to rehab.
I completed 90 days in a posh Florida rehab and came home. Didn't make it more than 3 weeks and I relapsed. Btw, I've never had more than 100 days in 8 years. My arrest was still pending....and then my life changed forever.
One day my lil bro and I went to cop in Schenectady...after doing so and partaking....While we were driving back home, I nodded off at the wheel and hit someone head on. Its a ******* miracle that everyone walked away! Everyone on scene refused medical attention.
Anyway....I've been sentenced to Drug Court in Saratoga County and am in intensive outpatient treatment. I have been prescribed Suboxone and Im not happy about it.
But it's working! So far Im 50 days clean about and am feeling grateful and good. But I know I will have to come off this stuff in the near future. Im scared as hell. The only reason why Im taking it is because of Drug Court....If I fail out of DC, I'll have to do 2 years in prison...and I cant do that. So here I am dependent on Suboxone (12mg/day). I keep trying to tell myself that I'm not addicted to Subs, I'm dependent on them....and there's a difference. My life is getting back to normal and my cravings are practically non-existant. On heroin, my life gets destroyed quickly. I'm just trying to suck it up. But I dread the day I have to come off of this. Ugh! Sorry for the long rant peeps!
I just need to throw this out there. I haven't posted on here in quite some time because I was out runnin again. A LOT has happened since.
Last fall (Oct 11th) I was in the thralls of my heroin addiction. Something I never thought I would do..... I drove my dealer down to the Bronx to pick up shipment. I was very nervous. 15 min from home we get pulled over and busted. 798 bags of stuff. DEA had been watching him. He got 7 years in prison, I was allowed to go to rehab.
I completed 90 days in a posh Florida rehab and came home. Didn't make it more than 3 weeks and I relapsed. Btw, I've never had more than 100 days in 8 years. My arrest was still pending....and then my life changed forever.
One day my lil bro and I went to cop in Schenectady...after doing so and partaking....While we were driving back home, I nodded off at the wheel and hit someone head on. Its a ******* miracle that everyone walked away! Everyone on scene refused medical attention.
Anyway....I've been sentenced to Drug Court in Saratoga County and am in intensive outpatient treatment. I have been prescribed Suboxone and Im not happy about it.
But it's working! So far Im 50 days clean about and am feeling grateful and good. But I know I will have to come off this stuff in the near future. Im scared as hell. The only reason why Im taking it is because of Drug Court....If I fail out of DC, I'll have to do 2 years in prison...and I cant do that. So here I am dependent on Suboxone (12mg/day). I keep trying to tell myself that I'm not addicted to Subs, I'm dependent on them....and there's a difference. My life is getting back to normal and my cravings are practically non-existant. On heroin, my life gets destroyed quickly. I'm just trying to suck it up. But I dread the day I have to come off of this. Ugh! Sorry for the long rant peeps!
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Wow, sorry to hear about all your problems. This part of the forum is pretty slow..plus its the weekend.
Idk but I think you're pretty lucky to be given this chance and be able to use suboxone too. So many go thru drug court without anything to lean on.
True some become physically and psychologicaly addicted to sub....but in most cases we are trading an addiction for a physical dependency. True we will still have to pay the piper but by what I've read from those who have gone before us is that a slow taper is the way to get off with minimal discomfort. Which is what I'm doing and plan to continue,
Like you said, your life on dope was destroyed .....mine too! So at least on this we have time to clean up those messes we've made. I know I have.
Hey good luck with drug court and your IOP. I've been thru one too. My advice to you is use this time to straighten out your life. This doesn't need to be a waste of time if you get something out of it.. Hell, I'll bet things will come back to you that you learned from that posh rehab you spent 90 days in.
But I believe any and all life experiences are an important part of personal growth. Nothing is wasted. Course its what you do with them that truly matters.
Idk but I think you're pretty lucky to be given this chance and be able to use suboxone too. So many go thru drug court without anything to lean on.
True some become physically and psychologicaly addicted to sub....but in most cases we are trading an addiction for a physical dependency. True we will still have to pay the piper but by what I've read from those who have gone before us is that a slow taper is the way to get off with minimal discomfort. Which is what I'm doing and plan to continue,
Like you said, your life on dope was destroyed .....mine too! So at least on this we have time to clean up those messes we've made. I know I have.
Hey good luck with drug court and your IOP. I've been thru one too. My advice to you is use this time to straighten out your life. This doesn't need to be a waste of time if you get something out of it.. Hell, I'll bet things will come back to you that you learned from that posh rehab you spent 90 days in.
But I believe any and all life experiences are an important part of personal growth. Nothing is wasted. Course its what you do with them that truly matters.
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Originally Posted by Rdphish 
Hi All,
I just need to throw this out there. I haven't posted on here in quite some time because I was out runnin again. A LOT has happened since.
Last fall (Oct 11th) I was in the thralls of my heroin addiction. Something I never thought I would do..... I drove my dealer down to the Bronx to pick up shipment. I was very nervous. 15 min from home we get pulled over and busted. 798 bags of stuff. DEA had been watching him. He got 7 years in prison, I was allowed to go to rehab.
I completed 90 days in a posh Florida rehab and came home. Didn't make it more than 3 weeks and I relapsed. Btw, I've never had more than 100 days in 8 years. My arrest was still pending....and then my life changed forever.
One day my lil bro and I went to cop in Schenectady...after doing so and partaking....While we were driving back home, I nodded off at the wheel and hit someone head on. Its a ******* miracle that everyone walked away! Everyone on scene refused medical attention.
Anyway....I've been sentenced to Drug Court in Saratoga County and am in intensive outpatient treatment. I have been prescribed Suboxone and Im not happy about it.
But it's working! So far Im 50 days clean about and am feeling grateful and good. But I know I will have to come off this stuff in the near future. Im scared as hell. The only reason why Im taking it is because of Drug Court....If I fail out of DC, I'll have to do 2 years in prison...and I cant do that. So here I am dependent on Suboxone (12mg/day). I keep trying to tell myself that I'm not addicted to Subs, I'm dependent on them....and there's a difference. My life is getting back to normal and my cravings are practically non-existant. On heroin, my life gets destroyed quickly. I'm just trying to suck it up. But I dread the day I have to come off of this. Ugh! Sorry for the long rant peeps!
I just need to throw this out there. I haven't posted on here in quite some time because I was out runnin again. A LOT has happened since.
Last fall (Oct 11th) I was in the thralls of my heroin addiction. Something I never thought I would do..... I drove my dealer down to the Bronx to pick up shipment. I was very nervous. 15 min from home we get pulled over and busted. 798 bags of stuff. DEA had been watching him. He got 7 years in prison, I was allowed to go to rehab.
I completed 90 days in a posh Florida rehab and came home. Didn't make it more than 3 weeks and I relapsed. Btw, I've never had more than 100 days in 8 years. My arrest was still pending....and then my life changed forever.
One day my lil bro and I went to cop in Schenectady...after doing so and partaking....While we were driving back home, I nodded off at the wheel and hit someone head on. Its a ******* miracle that everyone walked away! Everyone on scene refused medical attention.
Anyway....I've been sentenced to Drug Court in Saratoga County and am in intensive outpatient treatment. I have been prescribed Suboxone and Im not happy about it.
But it's working! So far Im 50 days clean about and am feeling grateful and good. But I know I will have to come off this stuff in the near future. Im scared as hell. The only reason why Im taking it is because of Drug Court....If I fail out of DC, I'll have to do 2 years in prison...and I cant do that. So here I am dependent on Suboxone (12mg/day). I keep trying to tell myself that I'm not addicted to Subs, I'm dependent on them....and there's a difference. My life is getting back to normal and my cravings are practically non-existant. On heroin, my life gets destroyed quickly. I'm just trying to suck it up. But I dread the day I have to come off of this. Ugh! Sorry for the long rant peeps!
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They used Suboxen to detox me when I went to treatment. It only took five days. They started me on about 12 mgs and stepped down the dose over five days. I felt no pain what so ever. I was prescribed to it as well for a period of about 6 months. I think the pain of detox is magnified mentally if a person isn't ready to do it.
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you need to find a way to lower your dose and learn to be sober without the suboxone, because the detox of suboxone is way worse then heroin, i heard stories where for different people suboxone saved their lives and they take it time to time, if it helps you with your detox then lower the dose and find a good doctor who will help you. I rather you fight this and take the time to realize this is your life and you only have one chance to live it! do some research and find some programs that will help you with getting your sobriety because you on heroin again could result in something horrible and i refuse to let you hurt yourself because of your heroin addiction, i work as a addiction specialist and i help people get into rehabs some of the best rehabs in the country, but plzzz find something that will save your life, your life has meaning to it!!!
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