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Join Date: Jun 2005
Location: Indianapolis, Indiana
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Thanks to you new folks for writing in. You remind me how easy it is to slip back into the old ways. Celebrating 6 months this week for the first time. I've been around AA 3 years and kept relapsing. It finally took hold when I followed the suggestions and really worked the steps, got in a workshop, called sponsor all the time.
Hang in there, hang around here, go to meetings. It DOES WORK.
Hang in there, hang around here, go to meetings. It DOES WORK.
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Originally Posted by roadie58
Thanks to you new folks for writing in. You remind me how easy it is to slip back into the old ways. Celebrating 6 months this week for the first time. I've been around AA 3 years and kept relapsing. It finally took hold when I followed the suggestions and really worked the steps, got in a workshop, called sponsor all the time.
Hang in there, hang around here, go to meetings. It DOES WORK.
Hang in there, hang around here, go to meetings. It DOES WORK.
Congrats on 6 months, awesome!
I was so stunned when I relapsed, it was like my brain just shut off and I threw away all my hard earned self respect. I had to drink for another two years to come back.
Thanks for the suggestions I am going to "hang in there" for the long haul.
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Join Date: Aug 2005
Location: canada
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Hi Ash!! Good that you are here. Alcohol kicks my butt everytime. No control is ever going to be possible for me. The only control that I have is not starting in the first place.
This is my first attempt at sobriety and I'm almost at my one year mark. It can be done. This is coming from a woman that everyone including my alcohol counsellor had given up on. Said I was just a chronic and no hope.
There is always hope.
This is my first attempt at sobriety and I'm almost at my one year mark. It can be done. This is coming from a woman that everyone including my alcohol counsellor had given up on. Said I was just a chronic and no hope.
There is always hope.
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[QUOTE=j'ade d'arcy]Hi Ash!! Good that you are here. Alcohol kicks my butt everytime. No control is ever going to be possible for me. The only control that I have is not starting in the first place.
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One year, what and accomplishment!
The quote above is right on for me. I spent years and who could guess how much $ trying to control my drinking. I was wreaking havoic on myself and everyone around me. After I knew I "had a problem", and even after I knew I "was an alcoholic" I still persisted. I would play the "who cares I like it like this so this is who I am."
How can you tell yourself you like being drunk, sick, etc etc etc etc?
How many out there can fill in the etc etc etc?????
Its no fun, theres no going back for me.
Day 11, and one day at a time from here on
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One year, what and accomplishment!
The quote above is right on for me. I spent years and who could guess how much $ trying to control my drinking. I was wreaking havoic on myself and everyone around me. After I knew I "had a problem", and even after I knew I "was an alcoholic" I still persisted. I would play the "who cares I like it like this so this is who I am."
How can you tell yourself you like being drunk, sick, etc etc etc etc?
How many out there can fill in the etc etc etc?????
Its no fun, theres no going back for me.
Day 11, and one day at a time from here on
I choose to live
Join Date: Sep 2004
Location: Antwerp (Belgium)
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Originally Posted by ASH
It was good for me to write a bit of my story down. Writing it, seeing it, posting it, makes it harder to sweep under the carpet and also helps me commit to memory why I dont wnat that next glass of whatever is being offered!
Welcome and I hope to see u around...
Love from Stefanie
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Join Date: Jan 2005
Location: Chapel Hill, NC
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What were you doing when you went back out? Were you going to meetings? Did you have a sponsor? Were you working the steps? Were you involved in the fellowship and service work? Did you pray/meditate? This is an opportunity for you (and us) to learn from your experimentation.
BTW, glad you're sober today!
BTW, glad you're sober today!
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Day 12, and still everyday is better than the day before.
Went into a store today to grab some items and realized it was one of the multiple stores I used to buy my wine, champaine, sake, whatever at. Rolled right passed without an urge.
Bye old friend, glad I can now see clearly now you were never a friend at all.
I am very grateful today for that.
Went into a store today to grab some items and realized it was one of the multiple stores I used to buy my wine, champaine, sake, whatever at. Rolled right passed without an urge.
Bye old friend, glad I can now see clearly now you were never a friend at all.
I am very grateful today for that.
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Originally Posted by REZ
What were you doing when you went back out? Were you going to meetings? Did you have a sponsor? Were you working the steps? Were you involved in the fellowship and service work? Did you pray/meditate? This is an opportunity for you (and us) to learn from your experimentation.
BTW, glad you're sober today!
BTW, glad you're sober today!
I would have to say I was taking the most important thing in my life, sobriety, for granted. It had been so long I had anything but disgust for alcohol I was just going along with my daily life thinking I was free.
Well, I wasn't, it was lurking there still.
I will guard it more carefully this time.
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