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Well Vic, I was told by moderator that people were feeling uneasy by the subject matter and I was reported on as possibly 'trolling' for females or trying to 13th step a couple of members. So I thought I'd at least reach out tgo say something.
I'm uneasy when people think poorly of me. But then my grandsponsor always says -
"what other people think of me is none of my business".
I like that one...
Michael
I'm uneasy when people think poorly of me. But then my grandsponsor always says -
"what other people think of me is none of my business".
I like that one...
Michael
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Hope everyone stayed on the bus last night. Is it time for a New Year's Checkin?
My name is Michael and I'm an alky/addict. This last year I celebrated my longest stretch of sobriety- 7 months. interrupted only by a single relapse in Nov (my b-day), joined a men's workshop, picked up my meetings to 3 a day for a while, then tapered back to exactly 1 per day.
Got through step 7 and started earnestly working on 8. Managed to figure out that a few obsessions were creeping in, learned about a few triggers. Got pretty much moved into my new house, paid cash for new car, kept business afloat (barely). Visited Phych in Dec and started Wellbutrin anti-D drug.
Thanks for being here.
Michael
My name is Michael and I'm an alky/addict. This last year I celebrated my longest stretch of sobriety- 7 months. interrupted only by a single relapse in Nov (my b-day), joined a men's workshop, picked up my meetings to 3 a day for a while, then tapered back to exactly 1 per day.
Got through step 7 and started earnestly working on 8. Managed to figure out that a few obsessions were creeping in, learned about a few triggers. Got pretty much moved into my new house, paid cash for new car, kept business afloat (barely). Visited Phych in Dec and started Wellbutrin anti-D drug.
Thanks for being here.
Michael
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Every Journey Has An End
When you have come to the end of your rope
Remember that you don't have to use dope
Remember that the journey that you had
Was all filled with good and bad
The journey your on will not be always be what you think
Sometimes life just really does stink
That is life on it tearms today
I have been hitting my knees to pray
I am really messed up in the head right now
I am still hanging on to the plow
I will not give in to this damn disease today
I don't know what else to say
I hope that you all have a really good life ahead
That at night you can rest your head on the bed
They say you sleep in the bed you make
Some of it isn't good for Gods sake
We run on self will and we all know what happens then
But then we have angles that are truly God send
I know that I will miss being a part of SR
And no I am not headed for a bar
I just don't know where I am headed right now
I just wanted to say to my bus riders chow
You have all helped me more than you will ever know
I just wanted to say I am clean and sober don't you know
This medicine that they have me on is really taking me for a ride
All I do is sit in my apt and hide
I won't answer the phone to anyone anymore
I won't even answer this damn door
I go to a meeting every day
I just wanted to say hey
Keep up you head and don't let it down
There will be another click on that sound
A click that says it will be OK
You can be a child at play
But for now I must leave this bus for awhile
Please don't frown but put on a smile
For God will be with you like he always is
Excuse me now I have to ****..
Remember that you don't have to use dope
Remember that the journey that you had
Was all filled with good and bad
The journey your on will not be always be what you think
Sometimes life just really does stink
That is life on it tearms today
I have been hitting my knees to pray
I am really messed up in the head right now
I am still hanging on to the plow
I will not give in to this damn disease today
I don't know what else to say
I hope that you all have a really good life ahead
That at night you can rest your head on the bed
They say you sleep in the bed you make
Some of it isn't good for Gods sake
We run on self will and we all know what happens then
But then we have angles that are truly God send
I know that I will miss being a part of SR
And no I am not headed for a bar
I just don't know where I am headed right now
I just wanted to say to my bus riders chow
You have all helped me more than you will ever know
I just wanted to say I am clean and sober don't you know
This medicine that they have me on is really taking me for a ride
All I do is sit in my apt and hide
I won't answer the phone to anyone anymore
I won't even answer this damn door
I go to a meeting every day
I just wanted to say hey
Keep up you head and don't let it down
There will be another click on that sound
A click that says it will be OK
You can be a child at play
But for now I must leave this bus for awhile
Please don't frown but put on a smile
For God will be with you like he always is
Excuse me now I have to ****..
PS Never ask for an expert advise LOL
Love Vic
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Originally Posted by roadie58
Is it just you and me left Vic?
to quote Pink Floyd
"Is there anybody OUT there?"
to quote Pink Floyd
"Is there anybody OUT there?"
I have to go to the liver specialist today again, I am just so damn tired of this I wish I would have never started this treatment but I am trying to take care of myself also. This medicine is very strong that they have me on. I can not believe how my mind operates. I guess I need to quit telling people here at SR how my mind is working it doesn't help them and I guess it isn't helping me. Oh well life goes on I just wish mine would end.
Vic
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(((Vic))) (((Michael)))
I'm still here guys. Just been real busy with work. Don't be so hard on yourself, Vic. Look at the positive things in your life. There has to be good happening in your life. Focus on that. You're not drinking today, that's something positive!
I'm still here guys. Just been real busy with work. Don't be so hard on yourself, Vic. Look at the positive things in your life. There has to be good happening in your life. Focus on that. You're not drinking today, that's something positive!
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Originally Posted by sherbear5104
(((Vic))) (((Michael)))
I'm still here guys. Just been real busy with work. Don't be so hard on yourself, Vic. Look at the positive things in your life. There has to be good happening in your life. Focus on that. You're not drinking today, that's something positive!
I'm still here guys. Just been real busy with work. Don't be so hard on yourself, Vic. Look at the positive things in your life. There has to be good happening in your life. Focus on that. You're not drinking today, that's something positive!
Love Vic
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Awww Vic. Things have to get better. There has to be a way. I will keep you in my prayers, God always provides a way. May not be the one we are looking for, but he provides. Take care my friend, and stay focused on the positive. You help many people here. I have seen it.
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Vic, good job on going to the Doc. Thanks for your PM.
You are gonna be okay man. Don't quit before the miracle happens. You are the strength of this program to a lot of people.
You are gonna be okay man. Don't quit before the miracle happens. You are the strength of this program to a lot of people.
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((Vic)) I hear ya on the price of meds. I get samples from the Dr because I don't have any insurance right now. See if they can do that for you.
So where's this bus headed anyway?
So where's this bus headed anyway?
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Thanks for the advice I have called and left a message and it I will call again tomorrow if I don't hear anything else. He said that with this interferon that this happens to most of the people. I am just so tired of being nasty in my head and to people that I have to do this. I had to really humble myself here guys because I don't believe in taking things like this, but when I told him how I have been here lately he said that he was really concerned for my wellbeing. LOL A doc that cares imagine that.
Thanks guy for supporting me I really need all the help I can get right now and did someone mention a hot tub OMG I love them. I just need to relax a little myself. I have been asked out to go to a NA meeting and I am headed there now so Just wanted to check in. Love you all thanks..
Love Vic
Thanks guy for supporting me I really need all the help I can get right now and did someone mention a hot tub OMG I love them. I just need to relax a little myself. I have been asked out to go to a NA meeting and I am headed there now so Just wanted to check in. Love you all thanks..
Love Vic
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