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Back again
Hi everyone, just to say I’m back again. This is probably my tenth return here, that’s being conservative. I’m on day 10 today.
What has changed? I actually don’t want to drink anymore. I’m done. Before it was always because “I have to” or “it’s the only way” but this time, I don’t want to drink anymore. I’m done. So hopefully this will be my last day ten post. I know I can do this and I will. No matter how many times I’ve fallen, I won’t give up stopping.
Thanks to all on this forum, you guys are amazing.
What has changed? I actually don’t want to drink anymore. I’m done. Before it was always because “I have to” or “it’s the only way” but this time, I don’t want to drink anymore. I’m done. So hopefully this will be my last day ten post. I know I can do this and I will. No matter how many times I’ve fallen, I won’t give up stopping.
Thanks to all on this forum, you guys are amazing.
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Good to see you, TheAten. 
That's how I felt when I found SR - I was just done. It was no longer worth it to try & control my drinking. I finally admitted it would never be possible to be a social drinker. Congrats on your 10 days free of it!
That's how I felt when I found SR - I was just done. It was no longer worth it to try & control my drinking. I finally admitted it would never be possible to be a social drinker. Congrats on your 10 days free of it!
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Thanks all and Hevyn thank you! It’s not my first time here, but it will be the last time I abandon it to carry on the vile merry go round that is my life when I’m drinking! I simply don’t want this drinking life anymore and I don’t want to drink. It has not served me well, in fact I served it, and I am just done.
The insomnia has been hellish, I really did a number on myself before I stopped, but the insomnia will pass and then I can journey on. I’m taking very baby steps this time and not rushing ahead to tomorrow; I only have right now.
The insomnia has been hellish, I really did a number on myself before I stopped, but the insomnia will pass and then I can journey on. I’m taking very baby steps this time and not rushing ahead to tomorrow; I only have right now.
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Good to see you, TheAten. Drinking destroys my sleep too - it's one of the worst effects, along with anxiety.
Congrats on Day 10 - that was always a bit of a milestone for me.. the last of the cravings..
Wishing you the best.
Congrats on Day 10 - that was always a bit of a milestone for me.. the last of the cravings..
Wishing you the best.
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I’m glad you made it back TheAten
I remember that not wanting to drink anymore feeling too…I still needed the support of others and the total commitment to change whatever needed to be changed though - and the drive to follow that new non drinking desire through, no matter what.
SR is a good place for all of that
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I remember that not wanting to drink anymore feeling too…I still needed the support of others and the total commitment to change whatever needed to be changed though - and the drive to follow that new non drinking desire through, no matter what.
SR is a good place for all of that
D
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Originally Posted by TheAten 
We can do this, northernsong! Let this be our last time returning and let’s stay the course and get the sober lives we deserve!
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I had three cans of lager sitting in the fridge from eleven days ago - I don’t know why I left them there - but tonight I poured them down the sink and put the recycling trash out. Felt like a very small but very significant win.
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Morning all, waking up on day 11. Not as fresh as I’d like as I didn’t get to sleep until 5.30 am (it’s now 9.30) but I’m getting up, brushing teeth, having breakfast then heading out for a long walk. Hope you all have a pleasant day.
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