90 days
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90 days
I feel so happy and thankful to make 90 days of sobriety.
I decided enough was enough on 24th April. I have had many periods of trying to quit alcohol, but always seemed to relapse once I had forgotten the misery drink gave to me, and decided it was ok to drink again. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. Well the good news is I am not insane
I understand and learnt that nothing will change with me and drink. If I drink, I will, sooner or later, end up in a binge, drinking morning, noon and night.
One thing I had to admit to myself, which I find has helped me. Is to be honest with myself. I drink to get drunk. I am not like a normal person who has a few drinks, get's merry and then says "that is enough because I don't want to feel horrible tomorrow". I drink until I pass out. Even now if I get a feeling of wanting to drink, I am craving the feeling of drunk and oblivion, not just one or two drinks. This really helps me, because it pulls away the facade the AV creates, 'won't one drink be nice'. No, because I drink to get drunk. Rationalising it, realising that what I want and will do is to get off my face, makes it easy to say no, because it's obvious when you put it like that isn't it. The choice is not 'have one drink and relax', the choice is 'You will end up in a binge sooner or later' so I say "Ok no thanks I don't need that".
I can't say it has been totally easy, there have been times even in the past week where I did think, is this all worth it? But what I do is just say, 'ok this is how I feel today, in this moment, but let's see how you feel about this in a few hours or tomorrow' And unsurprisingly, the feeling passes and I am once again happy to be sober. I just need to keep making the right decisions when those feelings come.
When you think about it, the decision between imbibing poison that destroys your physical and mental well being, or to not imbibe it, really shouldn't be too difficult. Yet is is, especially in those first few weeks, but it does get easier. The decision to not drink really does get easier day by day.
I decided enough was enough on 24th April. I have had many periods of trying to quit alcohol, but always seemed to relapse once I had forgotten the misery drink gave to me, and decided it was ok to drink again. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results. Well the good news is I am not insane
I understand and learnt that nothing will change with me and drink. If I drink, I will, sooner or later, end up in a binge, drinking morning, noon and night.One thing I had to admit to myself, which I find has helped me. Is to be honest with myself. I drink to get drunk. I am not like a normal person who has a few drinks, get's merry and then says "that is enough because I don't want to feel horrible tomorrow". I drink until I pass out. Even now if I get a feeling of wanting to drink, I am craving the feeling of drunk and oblivion, not just one or two drinks. This really helps me, because it pulls away the facade the AV creates, 'won't one drink be nice'. No, because I drink to get drunk. Rationalising it, realising that what I want and will do is to get off my face, makes it easy to say no, because it's obvious when you put it like that isn't it. The choice is not 'have one drink and relax', the choice is 'You will end up in a binge sooner or later' so I say "Ok no thanks I don't need that".
I can't say it has been totally easy, there have been times even in the past week where I did think, is this all worth it? But what I do is just say, 'ok this is how I feel today, in this moment, but let's see how you feel about this in a few hours or tomorrow' And unsurprisingly, the feeling passes and I am once again happy to be sober. I just need to keep making the right decisions when those feelings come.
When you think about it, the decision between imbibing poison that destroys your physical and mental well being, or to not imbibe it, really shouldn't be too difficult. Yet is is, especially in those first few weeks, but it does get easier. The decision to not drink really does get easier day by day.
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Congratulations!!
”One thing I had to admit to myself, which I find has helped me. Is to be honest with myself. I drink to get drunk. I am not like a normal person who has a few drinks, get's merry and then says "that is enough because I don't want to feel horrible tomorrow". I drink until I pass out. Even now if I get a feeling of wanting to drink, I am craving the feeling of drunk and oblivion, not just one or two drinks”
I feel the exact same way.
”One thing I had to admit to myself, which I find has helped me. Is to be honest with myself. I drink to get drunk. I am not like a normal person who has a few drinks, get's merry and then says "that is enough because I don't want to feel horrible tomorrow". I drink until I pass out. Even now if I get a feeling of wanting to drink, I am craving the feeling of drunk and oblivion, not just one or two drinks”
I feel the exact same way.
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Originally Posted by Pekelover2 
Congratulations!!
”One thing I had to admit to myself, which I find has helped me. Is to be honest with myself. I drink to get drunk. I am not like a normal person who has a few drinks, get's merry and then says "that is enough because I don't want to feel horrible tomorrow". I drink until I pass out. Even now if I get a feeling of wanting to drink, I am craving the feeling of drunk and oblivion, not just one or two drinks”
I feel the exact same way.
”One thing I had to admit to myself, which I find has helped me. Is to be honest with myself. I drink to get drunk. I am not like a normal person who has a few drinks, get's merry and then says "that is enough because I don't want to feel horrible tomorrow". I drink until I pass out. Even now if I get a feeling of wanting to drink, I am craving the feeling of drunk and oblivion, not just one or two drinks”
I feel the exact same way.
Well done op on 90 days. I love to hear that it really does get easier ❤️
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Originally Posted by StartingLife
This is the exact part of this post that stuck out for me too. I have never savoured a glass of red wine because it goes well with steak unfortunately 😏
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Thanks for that Primativo, well done and congratulation on milestone of 90 days. exactly same as me, cannot get enough once I start, barred from many local pubs (which actually did me a favor) on 54 days now and need to get to 90 too!!, here many times before but at 60 y.o. with a youngish family I have to put them first. Keep going and keep posting, thanks, good luck and well done.
Very proud of you, Primativo.
and thanks for posting those thoughts, it really does get better doesn't it and sounds like your being very mindful and vigilant.
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