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Hey, Lila. Just here to give you some support- I'm sorry you are struggling. The words here are wise, though, and backed by lots of experience. Hope things get easier for you- please don't drink. It helps nothing.
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I was very scared when I quit drinking.
I was scared I wouldn't quit. I thought I would stay in groundhogs day forever.
I was scared I would not heal from active addiction. That my life was over before I even had a chance.
I was scared that I would relapse and let myself down again.
I was scared that I would not get the anxiety under control. That I was going to lose my job. Lose my marriage. That my life was always going to be at the bottom of a wine bottle. I was scared that I was always going to hurt emotionally and mentally. I was scared of myself and scared of what I would do to myself If I didnt quit.
I was scared that I would hurt someone when I made a bad decision while drinking.
I was scared of a lot. So much. So much fear. I was so ******* scared.
So, I looked at that fear for a few days. Laying in my bed. I couldn't get out of bed. I was so hungover from alcohol that I could not leave my bed for two days. I didn't want to face myself, or face the world, or face my life, or face the damage. I just could not handle anything anymore at all. I was at my bottom. I did not want to continue living.
I made a solid commitment to give sobriety another try. Just one more try. If I didnt get "IT" this time then ....Well, I am not sure about the answer to that because my determination to get sober and to get on with my life free from active addiction kicked in. I was determined. I got back on this forum and joined a thread. Treated myself like I was in the military with a schedule that had every single hour accounted for. Wake, SR, Run, weights, eat, work, home, eat, bath, SR, sleep. Rinse and repeat every single damn day until I got level. Every day. No compromise. After about 6 months of this routine, I started practicing Nichiren Buddhism. Chanting for change. Chanting for growth. Chanting to heal. Chanting to end cycles. Chanting. Wake, SR, Chant, Run, weights, food, work, home, eat, bath, SR, Sleep.
My schedule is exactly the same today as it was 19 months ago. I love it. I am free. I have breathing room. I am no longer actively addicted to alcohol. I am in recovery. I am recovering. I have recovered from a lot and will continue to recover for the rest of my life.
Dont let fear stand in the way of a life that you are meant to live. You have the power to change your life one minute, one hour, one day at a time. You are more powerful than you know. I believe in you!
I was scared I wouldn't quit. I thought I would stay in groundhogs day forever.
I was scared I would not heal from active addiction. That my life was over before I even had a chance.
I was scared that I would relapse and let myself down again.
I was scared that I would not get the anxiety under control. That I was going to lose my job. Lose my marriage. That my life was always going to be at the bottom of a wine bottle. I was scared that I was always going to hurt emotionally and mentally. I was scared of myself and scared of what I would do to myself If I didnt quit.
I was scared that I would hurt someone when I made a bad decision while drinking.
I was scared of a lot. So much. So much fear. I was so ******* scared.
So, I looked at that fear for a few days. Laying in my bed. I couldn't get out of bed. I was so hungover from alcohol that I could not leave my bed for two days. I didn't want to face myself, or face the world, or face my life, or face the damage. I just could not handle anything anymore at all. I was at my bottom. I did not want to continue living.
I made a solid commitment to give sobriety another try. Just one more try. If I didnt get "IT" this time then ....Well, I am not sure about the answer to that because my determination to get sober and to get on with my life free from active addiction kicked in. I was determined. I got back on this forum and joined a thread. Treated myself like I was in the military with a schedule that had every single hour accounted for. Wake, SR, Run, weights, eat, work, home, eat, bath, SR, sleep. Rinse and repeat every single damn day until I got level. Every day. No compromise. After about 6 months of this routine, I started practicing Nichiren Buddhism. Chanting for change. Chanting for growth. Chanting to heal. Chanting to end cycles. Chanting. Wake, SR, Chant, Run, weights, food, work, home, eat, bath, SR, Sleep.
My schedule is exactly the same today as it was 19 months ago. I love it. I am free. I have breathing room. I am no longer actively addicted to alcohol. I am in recovery. I am recovering. I have recovered from a lot and will continue to recover for the rest of my life.
Dont let fear stand in the way of a life that you are meant to live. You have the power to change your life one minute, one hour, one day at a time. You are more powerful than you know. I believe in you!
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Join Date: Nov 2019
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From all the evidence based studies and from all rehabs/doctors, there are 3 safe ways to quit alcohol
when the body becomes dependent on it:
1# taper is usually the first thing suggested. I haven't seen the posts here on your thread but many people on Sober Recovery have successfully tapered.
2# doctor prescribed benzos if they feel patient will follow their instructions. <---this seems to be all about trust and relationship between the 2 parties.
3# detox at hospital which I believe is safest but not often an option in the USA due to insurance/money issues. Don't know about other countries.
Once the body is dependent on alcohol it's anyone's GUESS if I would die from DT's or die from dehydration, electrolyte imbalance, other medical problems that would make cold turkey dangerous and/or deadly.
When it comes to alcohol detox I'd never go with opinions from people because everyone wants to help but it's based on their experience which is often not based on what medical people will do or say. I can't even imagine how many people die because they didn't do one of the 3 things listed.
There's no way to tell on many many posts if someone is just in a hangover or if they're in withdrawal. I can't tell so this post might not be helpful in any way.
Sam
when the body becomes dependent on it:
1# taper is usually the first thing suggested. I haven't seen the posts here on your thread but many people on Sober Recovery have successfully tapered.
2# doctor prescribed benzos if they feel patient will follow their instructions. <---this seems to be all about trust and relationship between the 2 parties.
3# detox at hospital which I believe is safest but not often an option in the USA due to insurance/money issues. Don't know about other countries.
Once the body is dependent on alcohol it's anyone's GUESS if I would die from DT's or die from dehydration, electrolyte imbalance, other medical problems that would make cold turkey dangerous and/or deadly.
When it comes to alcohol detox I'd never go with opinions from people because everyone wants to help but it's based on their experience which is often not based on what medical people will do or say. I can't even imagine how many people die because they didn't do one of the 3 things listed.
There's no way to tell on many many posts if someone is just in a hangover or if they're in withdrawal. I can't tell so this post might not be helpful in any way.
Sam
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Really glad you're not drinking, Lila. Yes things will be a mess, but should start getting better soon. Keep reading and posting and try to eat some healthy food and get a little exercise.
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Join Date: Oct 2013
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I felt like my final quit too Lila. It will get better and faster if you support body and mind with whole healthy foods, lots of water, sleep and gentle exercise like walks in nature, slow yoga, and perhaps starting a recovery journal.
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