Tinker B Day 9
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Tinker B Day 9
Hi gang,
I’ve been down this road before and achieved short lived periods of sobriety… the longest being 4 months, only to pick up and end up exactly where I was at my worst.
I feel different this time, instead of feeling deprived (as much as I tried to convince myself otherwise) At 48 I think it’s finally clicked that my drinking is not only shortening my life, but is preventing me from actually living. I’ve been functioning in survival mode for so long and I finally feel ready to start living the time I have left on this earth. Did you know if we live till 80 we have 4000 weeks of life. This shocked me to realise in no’s how finite the time we have is.
I have also lost 2 friends my age to cancer who I know would have given anything to have more time with their families and I would like to honour them by taking better care of myself. I don’t want my family to have to grieve and bury me way too young as I witnessed at their funerals.
Something I’ve done differently too this time is purchased some quality hypnotherapy downloads I listen to at night and not definitely sure if these are helping, (I’m thinking they are)I just know I feel differently this time.
Not going to lie I needed the help of a few days of meds at home for an initial detox after cutting right down in the weeks before New Years and it’s bloody hard at times, but I’m finding a different mindset and I have constructive plans in place when I’m feeling particularly unsettled.
Thank you for listening folks and I want to thank those who engaged and gave of their valuable time through my previous attempts and thought maybe some might be interested to know where I’m at.
Lots of love,
Tink ❤️
I’ve been down this road before and achieved short lived periods of sobriety… the longest being 4 months, only to pick up and end up exactly where I was at my worst.
I feel different this time, instead of feeling deprived (as much as I tried to convince myself otherwise) At 48 I think it’s finally clicked that my drinking is not only shortening my life, but is preventing me from actually living. I’ve been functioning in survival mode for so long and I finally feel ready to start living the time I have left on this earth. Did you know if we live till 80 we have 4000 weeks of life. This shocked me to realise in no’s how finite the time we have is.
I have also lost 2 friends my age to cancer who I know would have given anything to have more time with their families and I would like to honour them by taking better care of myself. I don’t want my family to have to grieve and bury me way too young as I witnessed at their funerals.
Something I’ve done differently too this time is purchased some quality hypnotherapy downloads I listen to at night and not definitely sure if these are helping, (I’m thinking they are)I just know I feel differently this time.
Not going to lie I needed the help of a few days of meds at home for an initial detox after cutting right down in the weeks before New Years and it’s bloody hard at times, but I’m finding a different mindset and I have constructive plans in place when I’m feeling particularly unsettled.
Thank you for listening folks and I want to thank those who engaged and gave of their valuable time through my previous attempts and thought maybe some might be interested to know where I’m at.
Lots of love,
Tink ❤️
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I was four years older than you when I realized I had to stop drinking to get my life back. It seems awful late in life to have such an important insight, but that's what can happen to alcoholics. But there's still lots of time left to enjoy. I guess I could say it's a shame that I wasted so much of my early life on drinking. And it probably is, but I don't think it's productive to waste time on regrets. All that we have left is what is ahead of us, so lets focus on making the most of that. The good life starts with each new day. And with each new day, we must take steps to make sure we are not letting ourselves get lost. Eventually we get pretty good at that skill if we practice.
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Ditto, DriGuy, I cut down at 48 before finally quitting at 49. It’s obvious I wished I’d done it two decades before, but it’s never too late. Tinker, it sounds like you’ve reached that all important lightbulb moment we all needed to realise that we’ll be better off without alcohol.
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