PAWS/ ARBD month 18
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PAWS/ ARBD month 18
I wish I could say that it's all in the past now but with this permanent damage in memory, visuospatial skills, time- awareness and diminished feeling of reality, and everlasting mist in my head, it's present as hell.
It's a process.. learning to live with the new me.. I have tons of interesse, but I can't remember a lot. It sucks.
At my job they are astonished about my new never ending enthousiasm and energy and commitment, but what they don't know is that I take notes for the simplest things and study them over and over..
Driving a car. Impossible.
Still something with the vision, which makes it difficult to make fine art stuff.
It haunts me in my dreams, all the trauma I caused, and the consequences
It makes me nervous and insecure. Makes me sometimes want to quit my life here and go living on a mountain...
And I was always nervous and insecure in the first place...
The good thing.. I do móre effort than my colleague so in the end I score better results....
I'm in a bubble where hurting me has become much more difficult, and where I absorb less of other's BS
I don't complain a lot
I'm almost never bored
My finances are waaaaaay better
I am néver late
No stress for wondering if I could by pregnant due to irresponsible timing
I do a great contribution in my AA group since I take the steps serious and made a profound study. They even asked me for chairman (but I'm gonna wait another year) and I'm guiding a new member.
I don't feel so alone anymore. I'm ok with being a bit a loner.
I got to sudoku level 7.
All the best to all of you and stay away from that malicious nerve poison
Ps in the meanwhile I tried Keto..What a disaster that was!! Now I'm just doing normal, with extra antioxidants and omega 3 etc
Have a wonderful powerful year!!!!
❤
It's a process.. learning to live with the new me.. I have tons of interesse, but I can't remember a lot. It sucks.
At my job they are astonished about my new never ending enthousiasm and energy and commitment, but what they don't know is that I take notes for the simplest things and study them over and over..
Driving a car. Impossible.
Still something with the vision, which makes it difficult to make fine art stuff.
It haunts me in my dreams, all the trauma I caused, and the consequences
It makes me nervous and insecure. Makes me sometimes want to quit my life here and go living on a mountain...
And I was always nervous and insecure in the first place...
The good thing.. I do móre effort than my colleague so in the end I score better results....
I'm in a bubble where hurting me has become much more difficult, and where I absorb less of other's BS
I don't complain a lot
I'm almost never bored
My finances are waaaaaay better
I am néver late
No stress for wondering if I could by pregnant due to irresponsible timing
I do a great contribution in my AA group since I take the steps serious and made a profound study. They even asked me for chairman (but I'm gonna wait another year) and I'm guiding a new member.
I don't feel so alone anymore. I'm ok with being a bit a loner.
I got to sudoku level 7.
All the best to all of you and stay away from that malicious nerve poison
Ps in the meanwhile I tried Keto..What a disaster that was!! Now I'm just doing normal, with extra antioxidants and omega 3 etc
Have a wonderful powerful year!!!!
❤
Sober77 congrats on 18 months! I have PAWS too. I am just over a year sober. Try our PAWS thread for support and venting! https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ml#post7725691 (For those tortured by PAWS (Post Acute Withdrawal Symptoms) and who fear they might go mad Part 4)
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Time will tell.
I know what I know and I know only Time can be a cure.
Thanks for the support and positive thinking.
I keep you posted!
ps thanks for the suggestion of the PAWS forum but it's too crowdy there.
Blessings to all you Sober Warriors
I know what I know and I know only Time can be a cure.
Thanks for the support and positive thinking.
I keep you posted!
ps thanks for the suggestion of the PAWS forum but it's too crowdy there.
Blessings to all you Sober Warriors
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