Newcomers it’s tough in the beginning, (it’s supposed to be)
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Newcomers it’s tough in the beginning, (it’s supposed to be)
3yrs 7months tomorrow. I was talking to a guy who was trying to get sober today , sharing how I felt in the beginning.
I’m 57 yrs old drank for a long time alcohol was my life. It worked for a long time until it didn’t. Not going to lie I had a lot of good times but in the end there was nothing. My alcoholism was my leave me alone disease and at the end I was alone. I was still married w/ kids living in my house but I didn’t care about anything or any one.
My last drunk was just like the thousands before, just drunk that was it.
Woke up the next morning went to an AA meeting don’t know why I just did. (Not pushing AA whatever works for you). I didn’t drink that day , continued with meetings didn’t drink, strong cravings everyday . Trying to keep busy , walking my dogs sometimes going to bed when it was still light out just to end the day. Going to meetings everyday hearing the message not really buying it but I wasn’t drinking. I felt alone frustrated, angry, self pity the whole gamut . I ended up going to the bar occasionally playing quick draw, playing some horses. Drinking club soda. Drinking friends there it was boring and draining. My refuge was gone something had to give. I had to change my life. The old ways didn’t work and i was afraid , Next day went to my meeting and decided I’m giving this 100%.
Got a sponsor went thru the steps , it works for me. There are other programs, find one or a support group that works for you.
The first 8 months were hell for me sometimes the only good thing I did during the day was not drink. If you keep at it there is a light at the end of the tunnel and it’s not a train.
I have trouble relaying how stayed sober in words . It’s hard for me to convey it. Gonna start to get involved here again maybe I can help someone in my convoluted way. My life is so much better than it was 3 1/2 yrs ago I wouldn’t have believed it but it’s true
I’m 57 yrs old drank for a long time alcohol was my life. It worked for a long time until it didn’t. Not going to lie I had a lot of good times but in the end there was nothing. My alcoholism was my leave me alone disease and at the end I was alone. I was still married w/ kids living in my house but I didn’t care about anything or any one.
My last drunk was just like the thousands before, just drunk that was it.
Woke up the next morning went to an AA meeting don’t know why I just did. (Not pushing AA whatever works for you). I didn’t drink that day , continued with meetings didn’t drink, strong cravings everyday . Trying to keep busy , walking my dogs sometimes going to bed when it was still light out just to end the day. Going to meetings everyday hearing the message not really buying it but I wasn’t drinking. I felt alone frustrated, angry, self pity the whole gamut . I ended up going to the bar occasionally playing quick draw, playing some horses. Drinking club soda. Drinking friends there it was boring and draining. My refuge was gone something had to give. I had to change my life. The old ways didn’t work and i was afraid , Next day went to my meeting and decided I’m giving this 100%.
Got a sponsor went thru the steps , it works for me. There are other programs, find one or a support group that works for you.
The first 8 months were hell for me sometimes the only good thing I did during the day was not drink. If you keep at it there is a light at the end of the tunnel and it’s not a train.
I have trouble relaying how stayed sober in words . It’s hard for me to convey it. Gonna start to get involved here again maybe I can help someone in my convoluted way. My life is so much better than it was 3 1/2 yrs ago I wouldn’t have believed it but it’s true
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That was a good post. I just made a little over a year and things have gotten more difficult. But hearing these types of recovery stories keeps me motivated. There will be good days and bad days but as long as you stay sober you know you are truly enjoying the good days.
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Congrats! I went to AA meetings in those first few months, too. There is some amount of comfort that comes from just suiting up and showing up, ya know? I also posted every day in my Class Of March thread here on this site.
Nice to see you're doing well.
Nice to see you're doing well.
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