Day 5 - forcing myself to go for a walk and to meditate !
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Day 5 - forcing myself to go for a walk and to meditate !
Day 5 and I feel depressed and fuzzy headed. I barely had any sleep as I have pain in my arm and hand (I am now beginning to wonder if it is psychosomatic as I am so stressed about my life, son etc). However, I will go out for a walk into the woods near here and find my favourite pond with nesting swans etc. That always cheers me up ! I have also downloaded guided mindfulness meditations to keep me in the moment. Hope I can get the ooomph to use them. My ooomph seems to have gone awol !
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Sounds like you have some great strategies - walking and nature always gives me such a boost too. Keep going, you are doing great and you should be pleased with your determination and progress so far! xxx
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The most correct answer is see a Dr. What worked, so far, for me might not work for you. It might even hurt you.
In my experience...
The physical addiction is weakening by now. If there were serious problems there, it would be obvious.
So then the mental anguish began for me. I don't think it was any worse, but it was off and on horrible.
The best description I found for how I felt for about 3 years was insane. Certifiable.
These days I am a bit OCD. I need my desk a certain way. I check the stove 3 times. I have to say "the garage is closed" a few times so I remember I closed it while I drive down the street.
But, the life obsessing is way down. Work and other things that used to rage through my brain off and on all day have quelled.
I sort of feel normal.
It was a painful road to get here and one I don't want to ever walk again.
I get high, natural endorphins/dopamine, all the time. I laugh at stuff I never used to laugh at. I am waiting to laugh. I laugh making coffee.
I dance eating a burrito because it is yummy.
I am confident all of this awaits you if you just suffer through the first weeks, months, and years.
Suffering and time was my answer....so far.
I could relapse today and be on day 1 tomorrow.
But, I am heavily kindled. I will go insane and not make it back if I relapse.
I believe that with all of my heart, no need to test it. I would rather be wrong about this than test it and be right.
Love love love.
Thanks.
In my experience...
The physical addiction is weakening by now. If there were serious problems there, it would be obvious.
So then the mental anguish began for me. I don't think it was any worse, but it was off and on horrible.
The best description I found for how I felt for about 3 years was insane. Certifiable.
These days I am a bit OCD. I need my desk a certain way. I check the stove 3 times. I have to say "the garage is closed" a few times so I remember I closed it while I drive down the street.
But, the life obsessing is way down. Work and other things that used to rage through my brain off and on all day have quelled.
I sort of feel normal.
It was a painful road to get here and one I don't want to ever walk again.
I get high, natural endorphins/dopamine, all the time. I laugh at stuff I never used to laugh at. I am waiting to laugh. I laugh making coffee.
I dance eating a burrito because it is yummy.
I am confident all of this awaits you if you just suffer through the first weeks, months, and years.
Suffering and time was my answer....so far.
I could relapse today and be on day 1 tomorrow.
But, I am heavily kindled. I will go insane and not make it back if I relapse.
I believe that with all of my heart, no need to test it. I would rather be wrong about this than test it and be right.
Love love love.
Thanks.
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Yes, get outside. Walk. Exercise will lift your spirit and mood.
If this pain persists please set an appointment with your doctor. No one needs to be in pain. (says the person who will not go to the doctor under most circumstances that may require a doctor! LOL!)
Stay close. We are here for you!
If this pain persists please set an appointment with your doctor. No one needs to be in pain. (says the person who will not go to the doctor under most circumstances that may require a doctor! LOL!)
Stay close. We are here for you!
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Originally Posted by Icandothis2013 
I will go out for a walk into the woods near here and find my favourite pond with nesting swans etc. That always cheers me up !
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Hi, icandothis. Good luck at the Dr. tomorrow for your arm. I too have been having, what I believe to be, nerve pain in my left arm the past few weeks. I used to take a liquid B-12 supplement (for your nerve system, drinking depletes so much) which absorbs better, and realized I had only been taking a low dose tablet. So I bought the liquid again and am waiting, and hoping to see an improvement. I’m curious what yours turns out to be. Xx
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Go to www.postimages.org and there's a menu where you can choose a size for forums/message boards. That will make your picture just the right size. 
After you upload your picture, just copy the "hotlink for forums" and paste it into your post.
After you upload your picture, just copy the "hotlink for forums" and paste it into your post. Administrator
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Thanks, least.
Icandothis, walking helps me all the time. I just came in from walking a few miles and it always improves my outlook and mood. Plus, of course, there are physical benefits, too.
Icandothis, walking helps me all the time. I just came in from walking a few miles and it always improves my outlook and mood. Plus, of course, there are physical benefits, too.
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I treasure my walks with Billie. She has such fun checking her peemail and I get a kick out of watching her just 'being a dog'.
Our walks are good for both of us. We stay in shape and the walking is good for getting fresh air and sunshine. I cannot overestimate the benefits of walking.
She has such fun checking her peemail and I get a kick out of watching her just 'being a dog'. Our walks are good for both of us. We stay in shape and the walking is good for getting fresh air and sunshine.
I cannot overestimate the benefits of walking. Member
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Here are a few photos. I hope you can see them ! I so enjoyed my walk and next time will take you all along with me ! :-) https://postimg.cc/gallery/tnNVyTP
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Originally Posted by Icandothis2013
Here are a few photos. I hope you can see them ! I so enjoyed my walk and next time will take you all along with me ! :-) https://postimg.cc/gallery/tnNVyTP
Lovely, these photos could have also been taken in a park, 10-15 mins walk from where I live
. Lots of conserved areas, including various ponds and places to watch birds, turtles, even insects if you are into those. I love meditation, too. Glad you had a nice day.
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Originally Posted by Icandothis2013
No, where do I find ‘hot links ....’ ?
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