Ascended

Here I am, after my wife coming home....m trying to get my brain to speak sober........ after a night of a 12 pack....
To have a real conversation with her...........
Am I a total loser or what?
wow.....

ScottFromWI

Having a conversation is a good first step - what might you want to tell her? You wouldn't be here if some part of you didn't want to get sober and make positive change.

advbike

You're not a loser, you're an alcoholic. Big difference. Many alcoholics are exceptional people, with a disease.

Clearly it would be better for you to quit, using a plan and a program that works for you.

You can do this, man.

Dee74

I don't think you're a loser. I think you keep coming back here and posting because you don't want to lose this battle.

Think about changes you canmake to stay sober - and think about using the support here more often and before you drink not after.

It will take effort commitment and change but I believe you can do this

D

Steely

Why not rest and wait til you're 'over' the 12 pack then talk with her?

When your brain is speaking sober.

Ascended

I was just "trying" to talk to her...like how was your night.
My Brain wanted to but between my brain and mouth was on ocean of beer it seemed.
Guess I DO really want to win this battle...as Im back here posting (I didnt connect that)

FreeOwl

your post took me back to a thousand mornings after.... so many harsh words spoken against myself.... so much self-talk that attacked and destroyed my inner ME, telling me I suck. Telling me I'm a loser. Telling me I'm worthless. Pounding the shame into me.

But I was never a loser. I was sick. I was addicted. I wasn't able to see how destructive my talk was to my heart and to my inner child. How I kept myself in that pattern...... how my own shaming kept me trapped.

You're not a loser, either.

You're worthy, and human, and addicted and a person deserving of Love and Forgiveness.

And you can also be free of this, utterly free of it.

Are you ready?

Mizz

Getting sober is hard work. Sometimes it doesn't look like we are going anywhere with it but we have to keep trying and keep making the effort. I've experienced many set backs with sobriety. I'm very reluctant to say that I've found the magic for all of this. One day at a time. ONE DAY AT A TIME. That is the magic for all of this, I suppose.

You can get sober. You can be happy. < Its true. Very true.

doggonecarl

Posting after you drink, we can sympathize with you.
Posting BEFORE you drink, we can help you.

Steely

Did you finish up talking to your wife Ascended?

I thought alcohol gave me better better communication skills, but it did not. Slurred my words.

Communicating sober is so much better.

MaximusD

You are not a loser. One of the things I always say on this forum is if you are here and you are trying then you are one of the winners. You will get this right because you are trying.

Ascended

Not really, that night I just "passed out"...

Mizz

Makes sense