Katie100

Hey all, I've been a daily drinker for far too many years and I've been a high functioning alcoholic for all of these.

The last week or two has been very mentally tough and the alcohol didn't help and it's been building up to this.

Today I was just done. I snapped mentally and deleted all my social media accounts and completely isolated myself.
I eventually fell asleep and once awake I feel better.

But I think this is it. I feel an absolute wreck.
But perhaps this is the start of me quitting.

I've always needed a reason to quit as I've always just went along with it but today broke me.

So, I'm going to quit for my mental health as I can't go on like this.

Ringside

That's great news - really. Many of us have needed to get to where you are; I hope you will look back on today as the day your amazing new life started. You can make it so!

Anna

That's a great decision, Katie, and we're here to support you.

It might be an idea to come up with a plan for how you will stop and remain sober.

Surrendered19

Welcome to SR Katie. Congratulations on being ready to stop the insanity. Nothing that happened in your drinking days with regards to social media need be life sentences either. As soon as you have some sober time, you can reengage with social media sites and keep some healthy arms-length distance with those platforms. They should be just for fun and should include ONLY those contacts that make you happy. But for now, SR is the only online platform you need to engage with. The others forfeited their rights to your attention for now!!! Glad you are here with us now.

RUL23

Welcome Katie. I've been in your position many times. Heavy drinking for the last six years or so. While I haven't managed to stay sober for longer than four months during this time, when I do it feels amazing. I keep reminding myself that during my current sobriety. One day at a time.

anxiousrock

For me it's the mental health too, I can't go back to that

advbike

Welcome. It wasn't clear to me if the issues with your social media accounts was from the fallout from your drinking or actually a primary issue, but in any case that always seems a good move to me, and this is a good place if you want to get sober. It is the best, in my opinion.

I personally do not use any forms of social media, unless you consider online forums to be in that category (which I don't), but in the case of FB, Twitter, Whatsapp, IG, etc.. I have no use for them because to me the whole online sharing thing seems inane and encourages emotional dependence, you are giving away your personal information, and everything you see is totally manipulated by the their algorithms anyway. So I guess quitting that is a big win in my book!

Congrats. Stick around, read and post to your heart's content. There's a bunch of real people on here.

Congratulations

ScottFromWI

Welcome Katie, any reason to quit is a good one if drinking is causing you problems. You will find a lot of support to help you along the way here on SR.

least

Welcome to the family Katie! When I got sober for good, I was sick of the constant despair. I was tired of always being drunk or sick. It's been over 11 yrs now and I don't regret a minute of it. My life is so much better sober.

I hope you'll use the support here to help you get sober for good.

Steely

The mental anguish destroys. It broke me too.

Sometimes this needs to happen so we can mend. I'm mending now, and so will you.

I'm so glad you are here Katie. Keep posting.

You will find freedom in sobriety.

Tanky

Welcome to SR, Katie. I recognise that point. I too came to a realisation that I was just “done”. Sometimes gets called the right mix of determination and desperation. I quit after a non-specific drinking event. Just more of the same. I had many bottoms before it, I guess. But I just realised I wasn’t prepared to keep walking down the road and have my kids watch me die, slowly, or have my mental health overtake that decision and die fast. While I also considered myself high functioning, as I had not yet lost my job or my kids, the damage bill was actually a lot greater than I cared to admit at the time.

This community has been a key part of my journey to recovery and it can be for you, too. You will find so many resources and so much support here. Can recommend joining the February Class where you will walk with others who have quit this month. Read and post often . Make it part of your plan.

Mizz

I came to a place with social media where I found it to be incredibly toxic and I was not present in my life.
I deleted Facebook and Instagram. Its been months now and I do not miss anything about it. I will never return to those platforms. Not saying that is you. Its healthy to take a break.

I do think that self care is of the utmost importance. I need to look after my mental health everyday. Getting sober is probably the best decision I could have ever made in regards to my mental, emotional, spiritual and physical health.
We are so happy you are here. Keep sharing. Reading. There are so many good people here.

fini

welcome, Katie, sounds like the perfect jumping-off point to start turning things around!

Dee74

Really glad to have you join us Katie

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Katie100

Thanks all for the welcome

Just to clarify as a lot weren't quite sure, social media didn't cause the breakdown but deleting all of it was my reaction to the break. I wanted to be away from everyone and everything.
everything.
it'd been a very difficult prior two weeks at work and other factors. I knew I wasn't doing well but alcohol finally made me snap.

It's a good thing. I think I needed to snap to actually make me step back and see the actual situation I'm in.

I've also noticed that for the whole of this year I haven't been drinking for any physical or mental craving but mainly because I've been bored and it's become a habit. Something to do.

Well that's gotta stop, might as well start today

Steely

Today is a good day to stop Katie.

How are you doing?

RyanCulberson

Wow, Katie, your post really resonated! Your situation is nearly identical to mine. My snapping point was just this last Monday. Feeling broken myself and want to quit drinking for good.

Thank you for posting. This is my first post and I look forward to my journey toward complete sobriety.

Mizz

The end of my drinking was very habitual. I drank over anything and everything.
Keep on moving forward. You will be so happy you did!

advbike

Welcome Ryan! Glad to have you here. Keep reading and posting - start a new thread and tell us about yourself.

Hodd

It’s interesting that all sorts of things can come along and act as a catalyst that leads up to stop drinking. Katie, sounds like you’re having a very tough time. You can use this to your advantage. You’re right in that alcohol won’t help, so use the clear head time to think what you can do next. I can guarantee thinks will be better when you’ve quit booze for a few weeks. Well done so far!