Gabe1980

I don't know what is happening but I am finding it really hard to stop...

stickyone

​​​​​​It's never easy. We just get stronger as the time I'm recovery adds up. We find what are triggers are we see what we lost during are addiction. But depending what you put into your recovery you also grow as a person and have tools to help during hard times. Then over time maybe we stop looking at the things we lost and start being grateful for the things we have. Try to stay strong most of the times what you're feeling will pass it just takes time.

Zevin

What’s going on, Gabe?

Dee74

It is hard to stop especially if there are drinkers around you. I had to sit on SR for the first few days - but that worked

Dee74

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Gabe1980

I am not sure what's happening.....I have really freaked myself out. I just want to keep going. I am usually done by now but I just can't face real life. I just realised I am not happy and I haven't been happy for a long time.

Dee74

Its not unusual to find that it's harder to stop after a relapse - but the treatment is still the same.
Try for a day one, Gabe - you'll thank yourself.

Gabe1980

I will. Thanks Dee

Dee74

You can Gabe, Take yourself off to another room if you need to

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Gabe1980

I have to Dee. I've done it before so I can do it again. I feeling pretty scared though.

BeABetterMan

I don’t care if you drink a little or lot tonight. Make sure you don’t drive or jeopardize yourself or anyone else. Just know this, the more you drink tonight, the more sad and anxious you will be tomorrow. Which could lead to drinking tomorrow. Maybe one last good drunk and some hardcore misery is what you need? I don’t recommend it, but I know some bad drunks and some hard times after are what drove me in. And that stuff about not being happy for a long time. That is true for a lot of us. But the idea that the booze will make you happier? Now that’s a doozy. Post again tomorrow and let us know how happy you are. Just saying.

LumenandNyx

What are you afraid of?

Gabe1980

Yeah....I am not an idiot....I don't do stuff like that. Thank you though, I guess I just need to power through

Gabe1980

Decisions I need to make when I sober up

Dee74

The fear I had about what I'd have to do to stay sober was huge - but the fear of not getting the chance to make those changes was greater.
there's only really one viable choice - make that choice Gabe

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Gabe1980

Oh man, I'm trying. I don't know what has happened.....I really wanted it and worked hard before, but I have just lost the will

Zevin

I feel like you have already made those decisions and are worried about the consequences of them.

Zevin

That will to stop is not gone, Gabe!

Zevin

Start over in the morning.

Gabe1980

Maybe you are right. I cant go on like this, so I don't really have a choice x