I'm back!! For good this time...
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I'm back!! For good this time...
I know, you can go back on my posts and see how many times I've said that, and I know it means nothing.
I tried moderating alcohol and it lasted less than a month. My enabling husband offered it to me and I grabbed it, thinking after all these years, I could handle it. This experience has made me see things differently now.
I give up on alcohol. I want this relationship to end. It has destroyed my marriage, the relationship with my kids, everything. I want so badly to be happy again and I know I can do it, one day at a time. Before in times I've quit, I've always had this deep down desire to somehow drink normally. That hindered my ability to stop. Now I dont want any part of it to keep destroying my life. I want to live sober, for myself, and in time, try to repair some of the relationships that I've lost. Thanks for always being there SR!!
I tried moderating alcohol and it lasted less than a month. My enabling husband offered it to me and I grabbed it, thinking after all these years, I could handle it. This experience has made me see things differently now.
I give up on alcohol. I want this relationship to end. It has destroyed my marriage, the relationship with my kids, everything. I want so badly to be happy again and I know I can do it, one day at a time. Before in times I've quit, I've always had this deep down desire to somehow drink normally. That hindered my ability to stop. Now I dont want any part of it to keep destroying my life. I want to live sober, for myself, and in time, try to repair some of the relationships that I've lost. Thanks for always being there SR!!
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Glad to see you came back! You’re absolutely right in that moderation is never going to work for people like us. I had to really accept that to move forward. Sobriety isn’t always easy but after almost 8 months sober alcohol is not my “ go to” in times of crises anymore. Had a big falling out with daughter this morning and it didn’t even cross my mind. I can also now enjoy good food and things like movies.
you can certainly do this and with the right attitude and plan, it doesn’t have to be all that difficult. But it’s work. I call it my labour if Iove.
you can certainly do this and with the right attitude and plan, it doesn’t have to be all that difficult. But it’s work. I call it my labour if Iove.
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Before in times I've quit, I've always had this deep down desire to somehow drink normally.
17 years of sobriety and recovery after that 11 year period of always deep down having a desire to somehow drink normally, I am totally over that desire.
While a desire to escape reality might be normal, my drinking will never be normal, so that option is off the table!!! Thank god!
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Originally Posted by RedheadJen 
I give up on alcohol. I want this relationship to end. .... I want to live sober, for myself, and in time, try to repair some of the relationships that I've lost. Thanks for always being there SR!!
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