Before in times I've quit, I've always had this deep down desire to somehow drink normally.
Yeah that was me for 11 years. 11 years stuck in the revolving door because of that desire.
17 years of sobriety and recovery after that 11 year period of always deep down having a desire to somehow drink normally, I am totally over that desire.
While a desire to escape reality might be normal, my drinking will never be normal, so that option is
off the table!!! Thank god!