Day 1 feel like crap
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Day 1 feel like crap
I have been working up my day 1 for a couple of weeks now. I wake up and say to myself, today is day 1. But i also know that if i start day 1, I'm in it for good. I have to quit for my health, my sanity, my son, my husband, but totally all in for myself. So here i am, awake, sweaty, clammy, nausea, and anxious as hell...
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You're going to be ok Backtogood.
Seven months for me and am beginning to slowly reap the benefits. Learning to like myself. Not wanting to deny myself.
You won't regret it. Wish I had been smart enough to do it sooner.
Seven months for me and am beginning to slowly reap the benefits. Learning to like myself. Not wanting to deny myself.
You won't regret it. Wish I had been smart enough to do it sooner.
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Originally Posted by Backtogood 
But i also know that if i start day 1, I'm in it for good.
Read around and post often--it works if you work it!
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Thanks for the replies, i know it will be a long journey and will be worth it, but sometimes i feel very much alone and get too inside my head. This site has helped, listening to others stories, not feeling so isolated.
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I can relate to being too much in your own head, and the anxiety. Give yourself a chance. Take it bit by bit and breathe. Distract yourself from the stuff in your head by keeping busy or even just watching a movie or tv show. Get yourself through this day and go from there. Drink lots of water. You are so not alone. As I read through different posts it gives me some comfort to know that the hell I have experienced from alcohol is something many people have experienced. It sucks, but at least you know what you have to do. PM me any time if you want to talk. Stay strong.
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The first day has to be the worst. Not drinking feels about as natural as going to live on Mars. As Dee days, it does get easier (the not drinking thing, not sure about Mars, bit cold probably). The trouble is, and I’ve done this as has almost everyone here, is we feel we deserve a little treat after x days or weeks, a little glass of wine perhaps. All the good work is undone. The cravings come back worse. I always say it’s heartbreaking when the penny drops, and we realise we can’t ever drink again.
Being sober probably is like living on Mars. It’s not so bad once you get used to it, lots of new stuff to discover and you’ve got to stay and make it work. If you kept on going back to Earth every few weeks, you’d never acclimatise.
Being sober probably is like living on Mars. It’s not so bad once you get used to it, lots of new stuff to discover and you’ve got to stay and make it work. If you kept on going back to Earth every few weeks, you’d never acclimatise.
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How are you this Day 1 evening BTG? Hang in there ok? Don't worry about the next few days. Focus on yourself. For weeks I didn't eat anything but watermelon and raspberries and cheesecake. Your sober life will be so much more simple. No hangovers. No planning or hiding. A quiet mind, healthy and at peace.
Sleep might be an issue but it is another one that worry doesn't change so just roll with it. Even at 3 a.m., you can lie there and relax, which has restful benefits even if you aren't sleeping. And the knowledge that although tired, in the morning you will be clear headed and able to function is awesome imho.
Congrats on being sober.
Sleep might be an issue but it is another one that worry doesn't change so just roll with it. Even at 3 a.m., you can lie there and relax, which has restful benefits even if you aren't sleeping. And the knowledge that although tired, in the morning you will be clear headed and able to function is awesome imho.
Congrats on being sober.
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Originally Posted by Backtogood
All your kind words and i messed up. I only had two, convinced myself it would help with the withdraws. I feel disappointed, but happy i made it all day til 830. 2marrow is another day...
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I’m afraid that’s true. Stopping drinking means just that. Your body has to know you mean business, and there’ll be no more alcohol. Getting to 8pm or two weeks or two months and then drinking is giving in.
I’ve been guilty of giving in many times, but when I finally realised I was fooling myself, it was relatively easy.
I’ve been guilty of giving in many times, but when I finally realised I was fooling myself, it was relatively easy.
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I had sooooo many start dates that didn't work for me. I tried and would think, if I can make it x amount of time...blah blah blah.
I don't remember most things that happened on my last day of drinking but the one thing I do remember, me sitting on my porch telling myself I'm sick and effing tired of the drinking and I want my life back and I'm done. That was it.
I didn't think past not drinking now. I didn't think down the road, it was just don't drink now.
YMMV
I don't remember most things that happened on my last day of drinking but the one thing I do remember, me sitting on my porch telling myself I'm sick and effing tired of the drinking and I want my life back and I'm done. That was it.
I didn't think past not drinking now. I didn't think down the road, it was just don't drink now.
YMMV
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