Drinking and mental health
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Drinking and mental health
Ive made it to day 4 and so now im starting to think about why year after year addictions are still a problem. In a way im jealous of people who are only alcoholic or addicts. If this were my only problem I believe I wouldve resolved it years ago, but I also have a battle in my mind from severe depression, anxiety, the rare occasion of mania and delusions which are embarassing so I wont go into detail but when I start thinking about these delusions it torments me, and I just want to drown them away with drinking or drugs. I wish there was an easy solution, doctors always just overmedicated me with the same pills it was insanity they just did the same thing over and over again. Maybe they didnt understand what I needed because I didnt tell all and was also using but I dont feel they would help in any way. My fear is that I will be driven to drink again by depression or trying to drown out my thoughts. I only got this far because my depression let up lately. Its pretty common for people with mental health issues to drink andd most programs like AA dont address this. 12 steps simply dont work for me. I wont be returned to sanity, or I doubt it at least. Not saying im going to drink now, just wondering what the future holds
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The attitude to both problems are completely different. Its not our fault and we are not in control of mental illness yet we are completely responsible for drinking or using. It makes everything kind of blurred, not sure what to feel responsible for or not. AA attitude of its all your fault doesnt work for people like me
Ive made it to day 4 and so now im starting to think about why year after year addictions are still a problem. In a way im jealous of people who are only alcoholic or addicts. If this were my only problem I believe I wouldve resolved it years ago, but I also have a battle in my mind from severe depression, anxiety, the rare occasion of mania and delusions which are embarassing so I wont go into detail but when I start thinking about these delusions it torments me, and I just want to drown them away with drinking or drugs. I wish there was an easy solution, doctors always just overmedicated me with the same pills it was insanity they just did the same thing over and over again. Maybe they didnt understand what I needed because I didnt tell all and was also using but I dont feel they would help in any way. My fear is that I will be driven to drink again by depression or trying to drown out my thoughts. I only got this far because my depression let up lately. Its pretty common for people with mental health issues to drink andd most programs like AA dont address this. 12 steps simply dont work for me. I wont be returned to sanity, or I doubt it at least. Not saying im going to drink now, just wondering what the future holds
I've heard incredibly asinine (and dangerous) statements about mental health in AA. I just tried my best to ignore it. Barstool psychiatrists aren't very helpful.
Bottom line is, when I dried up for 8 months it really improved my mental state drastically. More than anything ever has in my life. Did I still have issues? You bet, but they were a lot easier to deal with.
I'm not an AA person, but I also deal with depression. It took me a long time to get properly diagnosed and to find a medication that worked. I think it was my 3rd medication and I had to try different amounts to find what worked for me, but it was worth it. I don't feel medicated, and it simply levels the playing field for me so I have a fighting chance with my depression. Have you tried different medications?
Hey Laura, I praise you on 4 days of sobriety. I've read another thread you have several times now and have relived my day 1, day 2, day 3, and on and on, Those day were frightening, terrible, with plenty of suffering. Now at 10 years sober all that is gone. Please pay attention to your AV(Addictive Voice), it's real there and will use every trick in the book to get you to drink. Being sober has not solved depression problems, financial problems some what.. Everyone here is rootin for you and glad to help. You can do it.
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I'm not an AA person, but I also deal with depression. It took me a long time to get properly diagnosed and to find a medication that worked. I think it was my 3rd medication and I had to try different amounts to find what worked for me, but it was worth it. I don't feel medicated, and it simply levels the playing field for me so I have a fighting chance with my depression. Have you tried different medications?
And if I can also add, what really irked me about the mental health professionals I have seen is that 95% of them reach for their prescription notepad before they even genuinely talk to you in-depth about what is really going on. It's a business and they have little time and hundreds upon hundreds of patients to see and want to push product.
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This has been my experience as well, Laura.
And if I can also add, what really irked me about the mental health professionals I have seen is that 95% of them reach for their prescription notepad before they even genuinely talk to you in-depth about what is really going on.
And if I can also add, what really irked me about the mental health professionals I have seen is that 95% of them reach for their prescription notepad before they even genuinely talk to you in-depth about what is really going on.
I agree that some people have to try several meds.
HOWEVER! None of them are intended to be used with alcohol or street drugs. They simply cannot work as prescribed. Being honest with myself and my health care professionals is really the only way.
I got off all my meds long before I quit drinking.
The quitting drinking part was the most effective mental health intervention I've ever found.
HOWEVER! None of them are intended to be used with alcohol or street drugs. They simply cannot work as prescribed. Being honest with myself and my health care professionals is really the only way.
I got off all my meds long before I quit drinking.
The quitting drinking part was the most effective mental health intervention I've ever found.
It is a rare alcoholic or addict that would have an otherwise healthy and issue-free mind. Our affliction seems to nearly always go hand in hand with some sort of mental challenge - depression and anxiety are legion among us, as is past trauma, bi-polar disorder, pandemics - you name it we all seem to have some of it. You can get sober though Laura3. Drinking made all of my issues so much worse. The lie of relief was 30 minutes (max) of maniacal drunkenness followed by the daily downward slide into drunken behavior, followed by unconsciousness, then hung over, rinse, repeat. The daily cycle made everything else impossible to deal with. My other issues are still with me but now I can deal with them in a much more effective way.
Left a bad taste in my mouth, that's for sure.
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It is a rare alcoholic or addict that would have an otherwise healthy and issue-free mind. Our affliction seems to nearly always go hand in hand with some sort of mental challenge - depression and anxiety are legion among us, as is past trauma, bi-polar disorder, pandemics - you name it we all seem to have some of it. You can get sober though Laura3. Drinking made all of my issues so much worse. The lie of relief was 30 minutes (max) of maniacal drunkenness followed by the daily downward slide into drunken behavior, followed by unconsciousness, then hung over, rinse, repeat. The daily cycle made everything else impossible to deal with. My other issues are still with me but now I can deal with them in a much more effective way.
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I agree that some people have to try several meds.
HOWEVER! None of them are intended to be used with alcohol or street drugs. They simply cannot work as prescribed. Being honest with myself and my health care professionals is really the only way.
I got off all my meds long before I quit drinking.
The quitting drinking part was the most effective mental health intervention I've ever found.
HOWEVER! None of them are intended to be used with alcohol or street drugs. They simply cannot work as prescribed. Being honest with myself and my health care professionals is really the only way.
I got off all my meds long before I quit drinking.
The quitting drinking part was the most effective mental health intervention I've ever found.
When I went to rehab one time they gave me 18 pills breakfast !
I can't spell .
The doctor in charge was a former drunk and dr. Understood what we were going thorough .
I spent 30 days there .
I felt great after .
I wish I went there long ago .
You can do it !
I can't spell .
The doctor in charge was a former drunk and dr. Understood what we were going thorough .
I spent 30 days there .
I felt great after .
I wish I went there long ago .
You can do it !
I mean, I agree that doctors are way too fast on the prescription pad and I hope to never take another drug that's supposed to make me feel better - but I had to get honest with myself...had I ever tried it any other way? From the time I was 12 years old I was taking either prescription drugs or street drugs or alcohol to change how I felt.
Turns out I'm perfectly capable of dealing with life without any of them. It took me a very long time to believe that, but I'm a believer now.
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