JimDodge

I made it 5 days but the demons won again.
Heading out to the bar in 10 minutes.

Stressed because I heard they are closing everything down again.
I'm trying to find a job and thought I'd turned a corner.

Just want to see some of my friends again in case it is a while.

Hopefully, I will make it hope safe.

Jim Dodge X

Dee74

no no Jim - you can beat this

you came here for a reason.
Drinkings not going to make anything better only worse.

These are testing times but you're better to be sober - being an active alcoholic will not make you more employable, man.

If you want to see your friends do it somewhere else than a pub man.

you deserve better - treat yourself well - stay with us.

have something to eat instead - stick around here and maybe help someone else out - it helps the time pass.

read this link for tips to deal with cravings
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-cravings.html (CarolD's tips for cravings)

You will not regret waking up sober tomorrow

JimDodge

Dee,
I am leaving in 3 minutes.
I wish you or myself could talk myself out of it.
I already know how the night ends.
I am so selfish.

Dee74

There's still time to change your mind Jim.

Once I went out determined to drink - I bought the booze - but dumped it on the way home - best thing I ever did.

Once, in an earlier time, I went out determined to drink - just for one night - I didn't stop drinking for 18 months.
Most destructive drinking of my life.

sounds like you're at the same crossroads Jim - make the wise choice.

Dee74

How are you going Jim?

D

ReadyAtLast

I think if you really wanted to drink you wouldn't have posted here.

There is nothing that alcohol will cure or help you with Jim.

you'll be in a better position to find a job sober with a clear head.

Please don't go to the bar, stay here with us on SR. You can do this. THink how great you will feel in the morning not having gone out

Gabe1980

I hope you come back Jim. Try again and you can make it this time

Misssy2

This is exactly what happens to me Dee...even if you reach out and tell someone you are going to drink....99% of the time at least for me I am going to drink no matter what is said...it is the most messed up thing the power of alcohol.....its stronger than all of us....sometimes I even pray to God before I drink and it is stronger than God....There is no use to me posting to SR before I KNOW I am going to drink....So I am curious as to why "JimDodge" posted?

I hope JimDodge you did not overdo it...and that you can rest and reflect today on how much better you felt before the drink (something I have been doing the last 2 days since I drank the other night)…..I was grateful to be in bed sober last night.

Surrendered19

I hope you didn't drink Jim. I don't think you wanted to. I'm leaving in 10 minutes. Now I'm leaving in 3 minutes. Those minute by minute announcements tell me that you did not want to drink and you were looking for some support. I hope you accepted the support Dee and others were offering you.

If you did drink, let's make it a one-time thing, ok? Let us know how you are doing today Jim.

gypsytears

I hope you didn’t go but if you did I hope you weren’t out long. Please check in and let us know how you are.

Steely

I was one of those types who couldn't toss it down the sink, or dunny, for love or for money. Or however much people might try to persuade me. "are you nuts, or something!?" I'd say. I thought people must be joking?

Thought it was a ridiculous idea, and had nothing to do with it being expensive liquor. Just got into the Zone, and I was away. Walked straight past the 2ft high note on my inside front door which read: DO NOT GO OUT! DO NOT GO TO TH E PUB! Talk about psycho. Needless to say I always returned drunk, once again having lost a piece of clothing, sunglasses, money, and my dignity.

Last experiece saw me do just that. Tip it out that is. It was the most rewarding, empowering experience of my life. Have not had a drink since.

Hope you get to experience same JimDodge. And if not in tipping it out, but by choosing sobtiety In its own right. , 😎

You can do this JimDodge,

Anna

Jim, I hope you are okay today and that you have decided to stop drinking. Do you think you could meet your friends under different circumstances?

Missy, alcohol is not stronger than all of us nor is it stronger than God as you said, though I'm not quite sure what that means. Take a look around here and you will see that many of us have decided to stop drinking and to remain sober. And, if you have decided that posting here before you drink is useless, that's your choice. But, I know from past experience, it does make a difference to some members.

TiredCarpenter

Take care Jim.

MissOverIt

Hi Jim! Let’s try to shake it off and rest and drink water today. I know it’s spooky right now but there are jobs and this won’t last forever. We’re here and would love to hear from you. 😊

wiscsober

Hope you make it back...but after that 1st drink all bets are off
So many times I said just one and ended up on weeks' long benders
or in jail or in a hospital.
Never thinking before I went out to meet up that night something tragic would happen
all the shame, guilt, humiliation refunded
or I dragged along the bottom for days on end.

Dee74

I ‘m not going to stop trying to talk people out of it Missy. SR and the people in it saved my life. I started off not believing I could beat this but so many people told me and showed me I could.

If nothing else I owe it to them to pass that on.

It’s not stronger than me - and it’s not stronger than you - or Jim either.

I hope one day you’ll come back to me and tell me I was right

Jim hope we hear from you soon, man.

D

Bunker

The knowledge that yet another relapse is about to happen is horrible. I have stayed sober for months at a time only to end up back at square one.

biminiblue

Sounds more like a planned drinking event. If you have time to plan it, I think you have time to change your mind.

I hope you'll be serious the next time.

It isn't something that "just happens" to you - it is a choice to drink.

Surrendered19

Hi Bunker. The knowledge that yet another relapse is about to happen, before it actually happens, means that it is not inevitable. We can always take another path even if you pick up. You can dump it out and stay sober.

Kdon853

Gotta want sobriety more than you want to drink. I’ve said this before for the first 6 months I wanted to drink every ****** day. I could have given you great excuses on why I should pick up. It was a fight that I do not want to go through again.
By the way my friends at the bar that I drank with for days haven’t seen them in 2 years. Well I did see one at the food store I couldn’t remember his name though. People and things change as your life changes.