Originally Posted by Jeni26

So, 4 years ago I was sitting in my car outside work having a full blown panic attack. I’d had a bottle of wine the night before...just 1 bottle...it wasn’t even a full blown binge where I’d drunk myself into blackout.

Just one bottle of white wine...

But this felt different. More serious. I was falling apart and I wanted to turn away from work and drive myself far away and end it all.

I was done, but I had really lost faith that lasting sobriety was possible for me. I’d had a couple of years, then a few months, then days....but sobriety was slipping further and further away from me and I felt like an observer to my own story...watching but powerless to change its course.

So, I had to really learn how to pick up the pen and start writing my own happy ending. I went back to AA. I took up a service position and had a home group. I did a Big Book study, I went on a retreat and was helped and then helped others. I kept in daily contact with some very close friends and shared how I was feeling. I got a sponsor.. I did everything I was told. I prayed and begged God to help me.

And, slowly I rebuilt.

Today, I look back on those early days and the memories of how difficult that was are so clear in my mind.

I never want to return to that person sitting in her car who thought the only option was to end it all.

Today I’m free and happy and my life is full of wonderful opportunities.
My kids are making their independent lives and I am changing careers and re-training. Life is good.

I’m beyond grateful I got this chance and I won’t throw it away in a hurry.

If I can do it, so can anyone.

Dig deep my friends who are struggling. Happiness is just around the corner

Xx

Originally Posted by ReadyAtLast

Hey, many congratulations on 4 years sober. Thank you for sharing your story. I needed to read it tonight and you've helped me hugely, thank you.x

Originally Posted by MidnightBlue

Congrats, Jeni!

Happy for you, my friend)