Need support...struggling :(
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Need support...struggling :(
Posted in another thread, but figured this might be better...
7 days today and feel like crap...eventually will schedule a doc appointment for myself to just figure out how bad off I am.
Scared, lonely in this fight. Wish I had a friend to just lay here and hold my hand through it, but that's not a possibility.
Trying to stay positive...trying to eat well, not hungry. I'm hydrated.
Scared of damage I've done.
7 days today and feel like crap...eventually will schedule a doc appointment for myself to just figure out how bad off I am.
Scared, lonely in this fight. Wish I had a friend to just lay here and hold my hand through it, but that's not a possibility.
Trying to stay positive...trying to eat well, not hungry. I'm hydrated.
Scared of damage I've done.
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Thank you.
Reading a lot and trying to post my fears, but keep myself focused on small progress.
Going through it alone makes it more terrifying despite having been alone off and on for years. No one knows I'm going through this except here on SR.
I'm an emotional wreck...
What if the damage is too much now? What if I took it too far? This relapse has been far harder. Just can't go back...hurts going forward.
Reading a lot and trying to post my fears, but keep myself focused on small progress.
Going through it alone makes it more terrifying despite having been alone off and on for years. No one knows I'm going through this except here on SR.
I'm an emotional wreck...
What if the damage is too much now? What if I took it too far? This relapse has been far harder. Just can't go back...hurts going forward.
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I was 5 months 9 days sober and relapsed late August I’ve been in hell ever since and today has been day 1.
in 3 days you will hit double figures with 10 days sober.
Like I said your brain is rewiring itself at the moment. The Deppression is unbeatable at times especially with the anxiety.
Use the pain your feeling to build determination to stay sober.
Worrying about what damage you have done to yourself will not improve your situation but staying sober will.
Whats done is done draw a line under it and keep moving forward!
in 3 days you will hit double figures with 10 days sober.
Like I said your brain is rewiring itself at the moment. The Deppression is unbeatable at times especially with the anxiety.
Use the pain your feeling to build determination to stay sober.
Worrying about what damage you have done to yourself will not improve your situation but staying sober will.
Whats done is done draw a line under it and keep moving forward!
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You are necessary.
You are worth it.
Meetings and Music helped me a little.
If your brain is like mine it's intricate complicated and a mess!
I hated to do it but I was so miserable I found a meeting and not only a hand but a number and a voice outside my own head
to talk to
that knew what I did not.
my journey started with
na dot org
because I am an addict
You are worth it.
Meetings and Music helped me a little.
If your brain is like mine it's intricate complicated and a mess!
I hated to do it but I was so miserable I found a meeting and not only a hand but a number and a voice outside my own head
to talk to
that knew what I did not.
my journey started with
na dot org
because I am an addict
You can do this!
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Also you can come post in the class of October here: https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...art-2-a-8.html
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Originally Posted by Stable 
I was 5 months 9 days sober and relapsed late August I’ve been in hell ever since and today has been day 1.
in 3 days you will hit double figures with 10 days sober.
Like I said your brain is rewiring itself at the moment. The Deppression is unbeatable at times especially with the anxiety.
Use the pain your feeling to build determination to stay sober.
Worrying about what damage you have done to yourself will not improve your situation but staying sober will.
Whats done is done draw a line under it and keep moving forward!
in 3 days you will hit double figures with 10 days sober.
Like I said your brain is rewiring itself at the moment. The Deppression is unbeatable at times especially with the anxiety.
Use the pain your feeling to build determination to stay sober.
Worrying about what damage you have done to yourself will not improve your situation but staying sober will.
Whats done is done draw a line under it and keep moving forward!
Thank you for the encouragement.. somehow I forgot how hard this was. I don't think I will be able to forget this time.
Always amazed how kind people are on SR that are struggling themselves.
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Originally Posted by Choicy
You are necessary.
You are worth it.
Meetings and Music helped me a little.
If your brain is like mine it's intricate complicated and a mess!
I hated to do it but I was so miserable I found a meeting and not only a hand but a number and a voice outside my own head
to talk to
that knew what I did not.
my journey started with
na dot org
because I am an addict
You are worth it.
Meetings and Music helped me a little.
If your brain is like mine it's intricate complicated and a mess!
I hated to do it but I was so miserable I found a meeting and not only a hand but a number and a voice outside my own head
to talk to
that knew what I did not.
my journey started with
na dot org
because I am an addict
Yes, getting out of my own head would help. That's why I'm here...trying to keep it all in the right perspective.
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Hi! I hope you're feeling a bit better.
My first post was on day 7 too. That was only 15 days ago, but in a way it feels like a lifetime ago. Not knowing your circumstances, I'll try not to compare too much to mine, but I can tell you that on day 7 I was not feeling terrific about my life and choices and my drinking habits that lead me to this forum.
Here on day 23, the world is looking far more forgiving and optimistic. My anxiety has decreased, I'm sleeping a bit better, and my body doesn't feel like it's constantly trying to play catch-up. I told my GP yesterday about what I'm going through and had a blood test. Results not in yet, but regardless of the damage I've done to my body, continuing to drink is the absolute opposite of what I need to start healing and looking after myself. I also felt an immense sense of relief by letting my GP know, she was totally understanding and supportive. She made the comment that alcohol is very addictive, and she sees a lot of people who have damaged their bodies with it but aren't yet able to admit they have a problem. The fact that you're here and worried about yourself puts you a step ahead in the right direction.
I hope you can see your recent move as a blessing, also. What a terrific opportunity to go out and form friendships with other non-drinkers, and build habits and find activities that will keep you from drinking.
You're never alone. This forum has kept me sane, especially in the very earliest days (I lurked for a while before both quitting and posting). We understand what you're going through and how hard it is, and we hope that you succeed in building for yourself a life that you want and absolutely deserve. xx
My first post was on day 7 too. That was only 15 days ago, but in a way it feels like a lifetime ago. Not knowing your circumstances, I'll try not to compare too much to mine, but I can tell you that on day 7 I was not feeling terrific about my life and choices and my drinking habits that lead me to this forum.
Here on day 23, the world is looking far more forgiving and optimistic. My anxiety has decreased, I'm sleeping a bit better, and my body doesn't feel like it's constantly trying to play catch-up. I told my GP yesterday about what I'm going through and had a blood test. Results not in yet, but regardless of the damage I've done to my body, continuing to drink is the absolute opposite of what I need to start healing and looking after myself. I also felt an immense sense of relief by letting my GP know, she was totally understanding and supportive. She made the comment that alcohol is very addictive, and she sees a lot of people who have damaged their bodies with it but aren't yet able to admit they have a problem. The fact that you're here and worried about yourself puts you a step ahead in the right direction.
I hope you can see your recent move as a blessing, also. What a terrific opportunity to go out and form friendships with other non-drinkers, and build habits and find activities that will keep you from drinking.
You're never alone. This forum has kept me sane, especially in the very earliest days (I lurked for a while before both quitting and posting). We understand what you're going through and how hard it is, and we hope that you succeed in building for yourself a life that you want and absolutely deserve. xx
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Thanks to all that responded over the last few days...the support does help keep perspective. Reminds me I'm not alone in this struggle...its real for us all.
Feeling better after 7 hours of sleep last night. Thank goodness...
Not feeling great, but eating better today and did go to the gym early in the morning.
Another day down.
Feeling better after 7 hours of sleep last night. Thank goodness...
Not feeling great, but eating better today and did go to the gym early in the morning.
Another day down.
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Hang in there
Originally Posted by Sadforldr
Posted in another thread, but figured this might be better...
7 days today and feel like crap...eventually will schedule a doc appointment for myself to just figure out how bad off I am.
Scared, lonely in this fight. Wish I had a friend to just lay here and hold my hand through it, but that's not a possibility.
Trying to stay positive...trying to eat well, not hungry. I'm hydrated.
Scared of damage I've done.
7 days today and feel like crap...eventually will schedule a doc appointment for myself to just figure out how bad off I am.
Scared, lonely in this fight. Wish I had a friend to just lay here and hold my hand through it, but that's not a possibility.
Trying to stay positive...trying to eat well, not hungry. I'm hydrated.
Scared of damage I've done.
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You are really not alone. We are a family here and I'm glad you've joined us. The first week or so is usually tough emotionally and physically. But, it will get better for you. As others have said, exercise will help, and getting outside of your head is the best thing. 
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Originally Posted by fibermaster
hang in there you will turn a corner soon. Excerise is the last thing that sounds good but so worth it. I found inspiring movies to help as well. Stay strong you can do this.
Hoping every day I feel a little more positive, anxiety is worse at night. Worry of all the "what ifs".
Exercise is my reprieve...hoping getting back to my regime will help in some way.
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Originally Posted by Anna
You are really not alone. We are a family here and I'm glad you've joined us. The first week or so is usually tough emotionally and physically. But, it will get better for you. As others have said, exercise will help, and getting outside of your head is the best thing.
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