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i remember once reading about a guy, drunk, smashing through a window, getting all cut up, and yep, it set off this bizarre response in me of wanting to drink.
what helped me in those scenarios was to mentally take a step back from myself and "see" myself having this reaction and seeing how wow unreal and sick this condition is.
having those reactions and urges certainly didn't mean i had to "go out", though.
but it sure helped to clarify how screwy the condition is.
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I just want to say that every time I've picked up a drink, it's been my fault.
If stress, anxiety, or negativity were the main reason to pick up a drink, I would have never relapsed. It was all me reacting to those emotions and situations.
By the same token, I also take credit for my periods of sobriety. I don't talk about it - not even on here really. But internally I credit myself.
If stress, anxiety, or negativity were the main reason to pick up a drink, I would have never relapsed. It was all me reacting to those emotions and situations.
By the same token, I also take credit for my periods of sobriety. I don't talk about it - not even on here really. But internally I credit myself.
At first, focusing on the torment of drinking adds a motivation to keep up with recovery, but in the end, it keeps alcohol on your mind. Eventually, I intentionally dropped my guard, but only when I knew it was safe, and that I no longer needed to be hypersensitive to the perils of drinking, because I had developed enough inner senses that would only be activated when danger approached.
This seemed to be the desired outcome, and until I joined this forum, I could go months at a time without thinking about drinking. But the exposure to all this discussion doesn't strike me as dangerous. Drinking exists only as one of my past behaviors. Sobriety is the default, and doesn't require much maintenance anymore.
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