Am i going to recover or give in to my many addictions
First was self harm then food then drink then drugs then being online
is there anything else that i can get addicted to most likely there just havent got hooked on it
I have to get sober this maybe the last time am doing this weather i die tomorrow through addition or live sober for the rest of my life
I have been having identity issues for a very long time due to life style choices and my borderline personality disorder
i have been going to another church at night on Sundays there Baptist and i am loving it there a friend who was meant to be helping me got another job so i will hardly see them ....i was close to them
i have been looking at my life for over the last few years and i feel i have been stupid to make me identity something i have not been at all
since going to this church i have been myself female like i was born as
Av decided to go to the church full time and get counselling from that church theres a group on am going to on Friday once a month and there is church on Sunday people from the old church dont know am going to another church the old churches service in the morning and the new church is at night time but i have to tell them soon that am leaving the old church for the new one ....i know the friend who has gotten a new job will not understand and most of my friends will not understand why i am doing this ... but i know if i want to be sober and happy i must do this
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Good to see you Serenity. It is really easy to flip one addiction for another, almost without noticing but the fact that you are aware of it is a good thing. I hope your current church members understand, i'm sure they will in the long run. I agree with Anna about being yourself.
Sending positive vibes your way.
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