Trying to maintain my sobriety
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Trying to maintain my sobriety
Hi all. My name is Lauren and I'm slowly coming to the conclusion that I cannot drink. Like at all. One drink never remains at one, and then I get sick! It's like I actively drink more to punish myself because my body actively does not like alcohol, it's ridiculous. Anyway, hi. Pleased to meet ya.
Hello and welcome, you'll find a lot of support here.
Your post made me think. Punishing myself. I've never thought about it like that.
I think that's what I was doing the last ten years of my drinking career.
The enjoyment was long gone. I had no logical reason to drink to excess, besides being an alcoholic, and yet, I did. Over and over.
Perhaps that is why I am alcoholic. Hmmm.
You gave me some food for thought, so thanks.
Oh, and it's been ten and a half years since I've had a drink of alcohol.
I wonder if I don't punish myself in other ways.
But I ramble. Thanks for your post. Gotta take a look at myself now.
Your post made me think. Punishing myself. I've never thought about it like that.
I think that's what I was doing the last ten years of my drinking career.
The enjoyment was long gone. I had no logical reason to drink to excess, besides being an alcoholic, and yet, I did. Over and over.
Perhaps that is why I am alcoholic. Hmmm.
You gave me some food for thought, so thanks.
Oh, and it's been ten and a half years since I've had a drink of alcohol.
I wonder if I don't punish myself in other ways.
But I ramble. Thanks for your post. Gotta take a look at myself now.
I've wondered about this. It could be motivated forgetting, a theory in psychology where we forget something for an underlying unconscious wish, good or bad.
There's other thoughts I think that say ongoing drinking damages the reward punishment part of our brains, so we are less likely too judge things properly.
There's other thoughts I think that say ongoing drinking damages the reward punishment part of our brains, so we are less likely too judge things properly.
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You sound like you drink like I DID...and how could I ever even think of feeling like that again? But I do....I am human and that was my coping skill for trillions of years...almost all my adult years....So it is hard not to think of it sometimes when you get sober.
But I have so many gifts in the past 60 plus days of not drinking...I hold on to THOSE....Just my clean sheets alone...
I will hug for anyone suffering tonight and pray. Prayers of thanks...for MYSELF being sober another day...and Prayers of Hope for the ones still "sick and suffering".
But I have so many gifts in the past 60 plus days of not drinking...I hold on to THOSE....Just my clean sheets alone...
I will hug for anyone suffering tonight and pray. Prayers of thanks...for MYSELF being sober another day...and Prayers of Hope for the ones still "sick and suffering".
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