Havnt posted in a few...slip ups..
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Havnt posted in a few...slip ups..
I made my one week then got drunk and high :/ i had been going to meetings and all and was feeling stronger a little more hope that maybe it was possible then boom friday hit and old habits hit so i said **** it....i was actually having a great day with a friend and really starting to feel happy. I had remorse before i even did it i was thinking omg this is so stupid why am i compelled todo this??? I was just at home it wasnt anything crazy but then 2 days later (yesterday) i did it again as i still had some left and of course reasoned with myself that the other day i was lowkey with it and it diddnt Hurt anything... Smh... I dont know how i forget the pain so quickly and the initial reason for wanting to quit.
Not looking for a pity party just checking in. Im the one who made the desicion. Even with this slipup the past 10 days for me though have still been more funcional, ive been more clear headed, better mom, etc it hasnt been perfect but normally i would be ****** up everyday so i just trying to look in the positive. Got rid of all my stuff, have a meeting tomorrow and im just going to keep going. Exercized today and hydrated a lot to start getting stuff out of my sytem.
This is harder than i thought and i really need to not turn every thought into an act because when i get a thought like to use for instance its like i have to do it. Im used to going on a missión as soon as i get a nagging thought. I have to find a way to not let thoughts control me.
Just wanted to check in hope everyone is well
Not looking for a pity party just checking in. Im the one who made the desicion. Even with this slipup the past 10 days for me though have still been more funcional, ive been more clear headed, better mom, etc it hasnt been perfect but normally i would be ****** up everyday so i just trying to look in the positive. Got rid of all my stuff, have a meeting tomorrow and im just going to keep going. Exercized today and hydrated a lot to start getting stuff out of my sytem.
This is harder than i thought and i really need to not turn every thought into an act because when i get a thought like to use for instance its like i have to do it. Im used to going on a missión as soon as i get a nagging thought. I have to find a way to not let thoughts control me.
Just wanted to check in hope everyone is well
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Hi rsanchez 
many of us faltered a time or two - it's hard to choose to post here, or go to a meeting, or whatever, instead of drinking with your mates....but it's important we try to do that - its important for example we read back and remind ourselves of why we want change and to accept that change will only come with new, better choices.
My head was still trying to convince me that I could drink and stop again...'one glass, two glasses, ok maybe one night maybe two...ok! no more than a week'.
the decision to drink again never leads us anywhere good.
The first time we reject the idea of drinking will be hard and we may not feel great about ti at the time...but you'll thank yourself in the morning...and it will get easier
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many of us faltered a time or two - it's hard to choose to post here, or go to a meeting, or whatever, instead of drinking with your mates....but it's important we try to do that - its important for example we read back and remind ourselves of why we want change and to accept that change will only come with new, better choices.
My head was still trying to convince me that I could drink and stop again...'one glass, two glasses, ok maybe one night maybe two...ok! no more than a week'.
the decision to drink again never leads us anywhere good.
The first time we reject the idea of drinking will be hard and we may not feel great about ti at the time...but you'll thank yourself in the morning...and it will get easier
D
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2019 has been a journey for me trying to finally get sober. I won’t go into the reasons. But before my current, most solid stretch of sobriety, I would have 7 days and drink for three, then 10 days and drink for 5, then 5 days etc. I kept getting down on myself but then I realized that I had actually probably been sober more days in 2019 than drunk, which is a miracle. For some of us it doesn’t just all happen at once. Some of us do exactly what you’re doing. Don’t stress it, but get back on the path ASAP. Good job checking in. And get rid of what you have in the house man, you need to be honest with yourself or you’re just wasting time.
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Originally Posted by Rsanchez920 
Exercized today and hydrated a lot to start getting stuff out of my sytem.
I completely get the, 'oh **** it!', as that is what I used to say to myself most evenings, when I had planned to stop that day.
I am now planning my days, so that that doesn't happen. Hydration is key (and not having alcohol in the house), as is having food ready when I get in in the evening to eat, instead of drinking. Having a shower and getting into my nightclothes ASAP. Even going to bed super early to watch TV with the cat. Thankfully, the rebound insomnia I was dreading, has turned out to be restful sleeping.
You are absolutely doing the right thing with the exercise and hydration. It is really helping me. Please keep going.
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Same!!
Originally Posted by Badga
This sounds absolutely brilliant, and is exactly what I am finding helps me too. I am nearly at the end of my second AF week.
I completely get the, 'oh **** it!', as that is what I used to say to myself most evenings, when I had planned to stop that day.
I am now planning my days, so that that doesn't happen. Hydration is key (and not having alcohol in the house), as is having food ready when I get in in the evening to eat, instead of drinking. Having a shower and getting into my nightclothes ASAP. Even going to bed super early to watch TV with the cat. Thankfully, the rebound insomnia I was dreading, has turned out to be restful sleeping.
You are absolutely doing the right thing with the exercise and hydration. It is really helping me. Please keep going.
I completely get the, 'oh **** it!', as that is what I used to say to myself most evenings, when I had planned to stop that day.
I am now planning my days, so that that doesn't happen. Hydration is key (and not having alcohol in the house), as is having food ready when I get in in the evening to eat, instead of drinking. Having a shower and getting into my nightclothes ASAP. Even going to bed super early to watch TV with the cat. Thankfully, the rebound insomnia I was dreading, has turned out to be restful sleeping.
You are absolutely doing the right thing with the exercise and hydration. It is really helping me. Please keep going.
I have been doing a whole relaxing night time routine and in pj's early watching a show or something.... Then im like i pretty much made it already why even start now??
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Good way to think of it
Originally Posted by BeABetterMan
2019 has been a journey for me trying to finally get sober. I won’t go into the reasons. But before my current, most solid stretch of sobriety, I would have 7 days and drink for three, then 10 days and drink for 5, then 5 days etc. I kept getting down on myself but then I realized that I had actually probably been sober more days in 2019 than drunk, which is a miracle. For some of us it doesn’t just all happen at once. Some of us do exactly what you’re doing. Don’t stress it, but get back on the path ASAP. Good job checking in. And get rid of what you have in the house man, you need to be honest with yourself or you’re just wasting time.
Almost on day 2...no cravings so far
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Originally Posted by Rsanchez920
This is harder than i thought and i really need to not turn every thought into an act because when i get a thought like to use for instance its like i have to do it. Im used to going on a missión as soon as i get a nagging thought. I have to find a way to not let thoughts control me.
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I'm glad you wanted to talk about what happened. It sounds like you learned something valuable. It happened to me a few times - and that was it. I was finally convinced there was never going to be anything but misery if I started up again. Every recovery was harder than the last - I can't do it to myself any more. You can stay free of it, RS! We know you can.
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I did learn something
Originally Posted by Hevyn
I'm glad you wanted to talk about what happened. It sounds like you learned something valuable. It happened to me a few times - and that was it. I was finally convinced there was never going to be anything but misery if I started up again. Every recovery was harder than the last - I can't do it to myself any more. You can stay free of it, RS! We know you can.
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