2muchpain

You've got lots of friends here Tinker. Please stay in touch. John

SoberRican

No worries you have alot of friends here. Me included. Take a moment chill with us. You be aight..keep coming back

Doris47

Morning tink 😊 I hope your ok this morning. I'm right by your side ok darlin. Please check in with us . Those feelings that you have will pass. You have an inner strength. You just need to find it. I believe in you, even if you don't believe in yourself. These weeks are tough. Those thoughts are crippling I know, but you have us to get you through, no matter what we are here. Lean on us, trust in us and believe in yourself 😊 ill be thinking of you an ill be right here when you need to reach out. Keep going tink xxxx

Tinkerbeau

Thank you all for reaching out to me, your kindness means so much. I reached my rock bottom yesterday i thought i would die from it, i lost my mind i was totally powerless.
i feel so ill i vommited for 4 hours during night. But I'm sober and this will be my last day one.

Doris47

You can do it tink. Dig deep and stay on here all day/ night if you have to. There is always someone around 😊 try to eat if you can, plenty of fluids, rest up an repeat. You've got this tink. I'm rooting for you xxx

ShiftHappens

I would just like to add that you are not responsible for another's happiness, comfort, approval etc
.
This is unfair to you and too much of a burden.

Perhaps the only reason someone is upset is because if you're a "normal" human being with feelings it hurts us to see another in pain.

I can't even watch an ASPCA commercial to see an animal suffer.

Please be well

WhoDeyPI

It's the perfect day to quit drinking!

Tinkerbeau

Yes i have quit as i cant do this anymore, im ill and exhusted, but this is first day of rest of my life

hopeful4

We are here cheering you on Tink!

Tinkerbeau

Thanks im having terrible withdrawal i feel so ill, i just want to feel better, why have i done this to myself again.
It's my son's birthday tomorrow and i can't lift my head to make his cake, everytime i try to get up i have to lie back down

hopeful4

You can do this. Stay rested and hydrated. Eat well. This is temporary and you can absolutely do this! You and your son deserve the best of yourself!

Tinkerbeau

The guilt of letting him down is unbearable

doggonecarl

Please stop beating yourself up. If this is going to be the first of many sober days ahead, it has to begin with the positivity of a new beginning.

Guilt isn't going to get you and keep you sober. Faith is. Faith that you can do this.

ShiftHappens

It's so distressing to see you or anyone so over burdened.

Please release the guilt and pain

ShiftHappens

I believe our use of alcohol has caused us to be so chemically imbalanced we need a doctor/meds/therapy to straighten it out.

Guilt has no place in this. We are as powerless now as if someone had given us nerve gas.

Doris47

The best present you can give ,is your sobriety 😊 ring your mum to pick up a birthday cake for him xx

Tinkerbeau

I've been to shop to get stuff to make him one, it was hard but i had to. I insanely considered getting a little bottle of wine to try and get me through the night. I didn't i bought a bottle of Lucozade instead. If i can get through today beating this, i can beat it everyday I'm sure i can.

SparkleKitty

Is it possible for you to buy a cake already made? Cake is cake. No need to torture yourself when you are feeling ill.

Tinkerbeau

I have special decorations for him and i will feel worse if i let him down anymore. I just do a little bit then lie back down. Its about time i grew up and put him first

ShiftHappens

Hon this is not about your inabilty to "grow up" or "put your big girl panties on" as someone I will never speak to again said to me.

You are in pain and I beg you to find relief from it in a healthy manner, not in a bottle.