It’s been a long time.
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It’s been a long time.
Its been a long time since I posted on here but I do come here often and read stories . But an update on me . I’ve been sober for 32 days and smoke free . But in this time has been a lot of grief and loss . I lost my aunt then 3 weeks later my father to liver cirrhosis. I will be burrying my father the end of this week and it hurts . He just went so fast. But in this time of pain I haven’t drank . What is crazy is seeing him dieng in the hospital made me want to drink just to forget but I just kept reminding myself the pain will still be there tomorrow. I plan to never drink again after seeing what this disease can do first hand . It took my father away from me . And it won’t take anything else . Anyone who is struggling please get the help you need . Life is to short to live in misery.
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I am so sorry about your father and aunt. The disease of alcoholism took my father at the age of 54, my brother at the age of 53, two of my nephews are in jail again, alcohol and drug related, and my son just got out of rehab 90 days ago. This is a brutal, ugly disease if left untreated.
Congratulations on 32 days sober. I will pray for you, that may find comfort and peace of mind in your sobriety.
I am so sorry about your father and aunt. The disease of alcoholism took my father at the age of 54, my brother at the age of 53, two of my nephews are in jail again, alcohol and drug related, and my son just got out of rehab 90 days ago. This is a brutal, ugly disease if left untreated.
Congratulations on 32 days sober. I will pray for you, that may find comfort and peace of mind in your sobriety.
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Thank you for the update, foryoumyson.
I'm so very sorry for your losses.
Staying sober was very wise and you are right, life can be painful at times. Drinking only exacerbates that pain.
Great job on 32 days, alcohol and tobacco free.
I'm so very sorry for your losses.
Staying sober was very wise and you are right, life can be painful at times. Drinking only exacerbates that pain.
Great job on 32 days, alcohol and tobacco free.
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So glad you stayed sober during this painful time. Life is hard enough without alcohol to make things worse. I am so sorry for your loss. Please come here as often as you need for support.
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What is unbelievable is you become a different person when you are sober . My whole mindset has changed in this short period of time . I like who I am sober . A big thing with me was not being able to look in the mirror. But I can now say I can look in the mirror with a big smile .
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Yes, you most definitely are a different person when you are sober, a person with hope.
I hear you on not being able to look in the mirror. I was so filled with shame, remorse, and guilt that I couldn't do that either. My sponsor constantly reminded me that I wasn't that person anymore.
Keep on smiling, you've earned it.
Yes, you most definitely are a different person when you are sober, a person with hope.
I hear you on not being able to look in the mirror. I was so filled with shame, remorse, and guilt that I couldn't do that either. My sponsor constantly reminded me that I wasn't that person anymore.
Keep on smiling, you've earned it.
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Originally Posted by foryoumyson 
What is unbelievable is you become a different person when you are sober . My whole mindset has changed in this short period of time . I like who I am sober . A big thing with me was not being able to look in the mirror. But I can now say I can look in the mirror with a big smile .
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Condolences on the loss of your father and aunt. That must be extra difficult early in sobriety.
Strange coincidence -- just a few minutes before I read this thread, I noticed myself in the mirror and liked what I saw for the first time in a while. I realized that I had been avoiding looking at myself in the mirror for (months? years?). Nice to know there are others with similar issues. Thanks!
. I like who I am sober . A big thing with me was not being able to look in the mirror. But I can now say I can look in the mirror with a big smile .
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