Tinkerbeau

At the start of day 1 after a difficult couple of days but i zee so clearly now alcohol is not a path i can go down anymore, i want a fufilled happy sober life. I am going to my parents today for lunch and will aim for an early night, with some housework done in between. Nothing very exciting but a content normal peaceful life is what i want.

sweetichick

Great work Tinker. Don't drown your sorrows because they swim. And once the alcohol wears off the pain is back. My condolences again.

Tinkerbeau

Thanks sweetie no i wont i want a better life

Tinkerbeau

Made it through to day 1 teatime, very tired but just having some sofa and tv time, not going to drink, and looking forward to waking up sober tomorrow

snitch

Well done. Just get to bed sober tonight.

Have you thought any more about AA meetings? Other women in recovery would be able to give you so much support Tink

AnvilheadII

suggestion - try to make a specific time each day that your post here on your accountability thread. sobriety is all about commitment. and consistency. that is how we demonstrate our accountability. good job hitting the pillow sober!!!!

Tinkerbeau

Thank you, yeah aa is still something im considering as especially at moment think it will help me feel so alone.
im back to work tomorrow after the easter break so think routine will be good yes i will always post here around 6.30am before i go to work and then around 6pm when i get in and any other time im struggling.
so day 2 i have slept better though and my plan for today is housework, get clothes sorted for tomorrow make some nice food and have movie afternoon with my child. Then early night and 100% sober day.

Tinkerbeau

Well half way through the afternoon feel very anxious, regreting certain drunk choices and dealing with emotions of recent situations but im determined to use those feeling to keep me on my sober road for life.

MantaLady

Just for today Tinkerbeau, be kind to yourself and don’t beat yourself up about the past. What is done is done and no amount of regret or turning it round in your mind is going to change it. When you catch yourself doing it tell yourself to stop and then try and think of something you are grateful for, keep being positive and build yourself up, don’t weigh yourself down with these negative and unhelpful thoughts.

Don’t look backwards, your not going that way xx

Tinkerbeau

Thanks mantalady, i wrote myself a recovery plan to keep myself productive and to actually really begin to change my life. It helped and im sure i will have alot to add to it as the days progress. Im having a early night as back to work tomorrow but looking forward to a sober day 3 and seeing my work friends.

Dee74

Best wishes for work tommorrow

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kinzoku

Nice!

Congrats on your third day of peace

Tinkerbeau

Thank you im up early to get back in my routine for work, very pleased to be on day 3 sober, and looking forward to a much more promising future. Little nervous to c ppl as couple of my close work friends know about the shock i had last week after the bad news i found out. But sad as that was it has really driven home to me how much i need to change and it is life or death. I have wasted alot of time but the rest of my life i want to be happy, healthy and fufilled. Without a shadow of doubt I Want To Be Sober More Than I Ever Want To Drink.

Hpe everyone has a good day your support is so appreciated

MantaLady

Take care of yourself today, you can do this! x

Tinkerbeau

Thank you mantalady

sweetichick

So proud of you Tinker. You have had an amazing loss and are still sober. Great work.

Tinkerbeau

Thank you Sweeti, its like its made me more determined than ever, hope you are well

Tinkerbeau

Coming up to end of day 3, enjoyed being back at work still feel quite foggy in head but just having some chill time now, trash tv and chocolate. Looking forward to day 4.

Dee74

well done Tink

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Tinkerbeau

Thanks dee, up early ready to start day 4, feel like i had such a good deep sleep, started to read the aa website last night and felt it did register well with me so going to look into aa alot more.