Day 11
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Day 11
So, this is normally around the time that I would relapse. Aside from that time I had 6 months but ever since then, it's been 11 days of sobriety and then straight to relapse-ville.
So, this time, I actually think something might be changing. I have this weird feeling that alcohol isn't so much a friend, but an enemy. I'm starting to think of alcohol the way I think of the bleach under my sink. My mindset is changing.
Those 6 months of sobriety I had, I was kind of white-knuckling it. Sure, I had a sponsor, and got all the way to Step 7, but I still felt like I was holding myself back from something amazing, like denying myself a delicious slice of chocolate cake.
I just don't see it that way anymore. Why would I want something that poisons my mind and body-and- get this- ISN'T EVEN THAT FUN.
This is probably just a pink-cloud type experience, it probably won't last, but yeah, as of right now, I've got 0 desire.
So, this time, I actually think something might be changing. I have this weird feeling that alcohol isn't so much a friend, but an enemy. I'm starting to think of alcohol the way I think of the bleach under my sink. My mindset is changing.
Those 6 months of sobriety I had, I was kind of white-knuckling it. Sure, I had a sponsor, and got all the way to Step 7, but I still felt like I was holding myself back from something amazing, like denying myself a delicious slice of chocolate cake.
I just don't see it that way anymore. Why would I want something that poisons my mind and body-and- get this- ISN'T EVEN THAT FUN.
This is probably just a pink-cloud type experience, it probably won't last, but yeah, as of right now, I've got 0 desire.
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For me when I started to see sobriety as a choice rather than something I had to do my mindset changed hugely! When you deny yourself something you think you want the mind automatically feels slighted and like a child being told it can’t do something. Humans are natural rebels so we automatically want to fight against it, or at least I did!! When you start to reframe it as a choice, I.e. I could drink if I wanted to but “insert bad stuff here” is the price I will pay and I don’t want that it’s much easier to deal with.
You’re doing great and 11 days is something to be proud of. You deserve better for yourself so keep strong and keep up the good fight xx
You’re doing great and 11 days is something to be proud of. You deserve better for yourself so keep strong and keep up the good fight xx
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In my experience when my eyes became open to the truth about alcohol it made it impossible to drink it again without the knowledge that what I am going to put in my body is pure poison to me. Like you said, the bleach in your cupboard. ☠
Sounds like you are starting to become awake to the truth 😃😃
Sounds like you are starting to become awake to the truth 😃😃
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