secretchord

...the beast gets weaker, and I get stronger. At least that’s what I’ve been telling myself.

13 days with no wine today.

🙂

secretchord

Sometimes I feel strong and other times I feel like I’m barely hanging on. I don’t trust myself alone so I’m trying to limit where I go at least for now. New Years is triggering me (just one last time it says). Christmas was rough with everyone drinking.

least

NYE you can stay sober and wake up to the new year feeling good, not horrible. I love living sober. You couldn't pay me to drink. I like being clear of mind and feeling good each day.

Don't let yourself be tempted to drink. Remind yourself how bad you'll feel if you do.

You can do this!

secretchord

Denial has always been my biggest problem. In fact, while reading posts here AV has decided that I don't drink enough and this whole sobriety crap is pure stupidity. Alcoholics drink every day. Alcoholics drink twice as much as you if not more. Alcoholics have bad things happen. I read horrible stories and I suddenly don't have a problem. This is one reason I can't do AA. At least here I can stop reading. Ugh.

Dee74

I think everyone here rationalised their drinking wasn't that bad.
I don't blame SR or AA or anything else for that - it was just my AV being full of BS

Don't let it cut you off from the support you need

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Kaily

Slay the beast, that's what I'm trying to do.

Well done on 13 days!

PhoenixJ

well done

August252015

So glad you are sharing, and proud of your 13 (dawning on 14!) sober days.

I bolded that line because I did just that for quite awhile as I was getting started in sobriety. "People, places and practices" is one of my Dad's longtime sayings - and I finally took it to heart about my choices to get and stay sober. I was perhaps way more conservative than some- I didn't take a trip out of town except with my parents and now husband, for the first 9 mo; I didn't go to my first party til 14; wedding til 19...it was also important to me to choose who I spent time with - and when I didn't need to be alone- and make that "conservative" or "no" choice accordingly.

My husband is also in recovery and we describe what you are talking about as "making the next right choice." (I'm sure we didn't coin that, though!) Early on, literally, it was asking myself what would take me closer to a drink, or further in my sober life?

Glad you are here- keep going!

dwtbd

Alcoholics have a hard time not drinking. ( actually it's their AVs that have a hard time with the concept of no more booze)

vinono

Snowydelrico

Your first year is a year of firsts.
You’ve got Xmas done and dusted
Now on for new year , 2 for 2 as they say in America
2 big ones as well.
Come on you can do it.
Knock that beast out of the park!

Dee74

how are things secretchord?

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secretchord

Honestly, I've been super triggered by New Years. Fortunately there was a nice snow and ice storm and I'm all snuggled in ready for the new year. I'm shocked I'm over 2 weeks sober now. This is my first sober New Years in two years.

Delilah1

Great job!! You are going g to end 2018 sober, and wake up sober in 2019, sounds like a pretty amazing ending/beginning to me!!!

least

You'll be starting the new year off right - sober!

Stay sober long enough and the desire to drink gets less and less.

Dee74

congrats on the sober time SC- and hey take those sober gifts wherever you find them - even in a snowstorm

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