The idiot is back
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Join Date: Nov 2012
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The idiot is back
Hi all
im back,made a right mess of my sobriety
9 months ruined and back to square one,the moderation devil got me , one pint won’t hurt ..it didn’t for a few weeks then a quick glass of wine and boom - 2 bottles a nite :-(
im so annoyed with myself , the 9 months off (apart from first few weeks) I felt so alive !
anyway - day one
im back,made a right mess of my sobriety
9 months ruined and back to square one,the moderation devil got me , one pint won’t hurt ..it didn’t for a few weeks then a quick glass of wine and boom - 2 bottles a nite :-(
im so annoyed with myself , the 9 months off (apart from first few weeks) I felt so alive !
anyway - day one
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Join Date: Oct 2017
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Welcome back rainyengland, sorry to hear you fell off the wagon. Dust yourself down and climb back up. The 9 months is not lost. You've shown yourself that you can live alcohol-free but need to re-check your plan and recognise that moderation is not an option.
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Join Date: Mar 2014
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Well, at least you ran the experiment and lived to tell about it. Some people never make it back. Just recently I ran into someone I knew from back when I went to AA meetings and he told me about a lady who also had been going to meetings and she did the same thing you did and died during a binge.
It's never worth it. It's like playing Russian Roulette.
No sense beating yourself up. I hope you find a way to tell it, "No," the next time and every time after that.
Glad you're back.
It's never worth it. It's like playing Russian Roulette.
No sense beating yourself up. I hope you find a way to tell it, "No," the next time and every time after that.
Glad you're back.
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Join Date: May 2018
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You are not an idiot you have recognised what has happened and are now putting things right. The 9monthd are not wasted they have shown you were happier without alcohol which is not surprising as alcohol is a deppresant.
The moderation devil is a really unpleasant incipient thing for us alcoholics. WE cannot moderate.
it is unfortunate when a slip happens. Don't beat yourself up about it and stay sober.
The moderation devil is a really unpleasant incipient thing for us alcoholics. WE cannot moderate.
it is unfortunate when a slip happens. Don't beat yourself up about it and stay sober.
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Join Date: Feb 2018
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You aren't the first and you won't be the last. You are no monster. You spent a lot more time sober than drunk for that 9 months.
Now saddle up, weather the first few days, and start working on letting it go for good this time.
Best to you-
B
Now saddle up, weather the first few days, and start working on letting it go for good this time.
Best to you-
B
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Join Date: Jan 2017
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Welcome back and thanks for posting this. We can all relate. It’s also a wake up call for people such as myself in the early stages of this attempt at sobriety that no matter how much sober time you have you can not moderate no matter how much you try to convince yourself you can. As I have discovered numerous times.
Thanks and well done for posting.
Thanks and well done for posting.
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Good to see you, rainyengland. That happened to me, too - and it made me more determined. I learned there could never be 'just one' - not ever. As a result, I've never tested myself again. You can reclaim your life, there is no doubt.
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