And now all the pain Ive been drowning ......it is laid bare
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And now all the pain Ive been drowning ......it is laid bare
My rapes, batteries, my husband's hatred of me, my mother's hatred and, now, her death. My beloved father's death, my deat daughter's illness, my failed career and lost dreamss. No more sea of panacea to cover them, dull them, quash them. I
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You will make it, one moment at a time, even if the pain is excruciating.
Stay sober. Tough things out.
Right now you are an oyster with a painful grain of sand in your soft lining.
But as each day passes, your dedication to recovery is building a pearl coating to slowly smooth the angles of the grain of sand.
Eventually, though your painful experiences will still be a part of you, their power and immediacy will be greatly lessened.
You need to face it sober, though. The only way out is through.
You will make it, one moment at a time, even if the pain is excruciating.
Stay sober. Tough things out.
Right now you are an oyster with a painful grain of sand in your soft lining.
But as each day passes, your dedication to recovery is building a pearl coating to slowly smooth the angles of the grain of sand.
Eventually, though your painful experiences will still be a part of you, their power and immediacy will be greatly lessened.
You need to face it sober, though. The only way out is through.
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I am sorry for what you have been through and what you are going through. This too shall pass. Drinking won’t make anything better. It makes everything worse. You can get through this sober!
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I'm sorry you're facing all this resurfacing pain too - but you can.
You're not alone - we're with you.
I think you'll find, like I did, that you're stronger than you know.
time for chapter two 4thegirls
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You're not alone - we're with you.
I think you'll find, like I did, that you're stronger than you know.
time for chapter two 4thegirls
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A short course of cognitive therapy was really helpful for me.
I cried through several one-hour sessions essentially without stopping.
Feeling the pain was so difficult, but letting it go gave me the most peace I ever have had as an adult.
I still get waves, but so much smaller and more manageable now.
There is a huge geyser of anger under the pain.
Be ready for that and find appropriate ways to release it.
I cried through several one-hour sessions essentially without stopping.
Feeling the pain was so difficult, but letting it go gave me the most peace I ever have had as an adult.
I still get waves, but so much smaller and more manageable now.
There is a huge geyser of anger under the pain.
Be ready for that and find appropriate ways to release it.
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Hope you are doing better today 4thegirls. I think what you are experiencing is part of the process. I know I had some breakdowns right around a year. Emotions just overflowed. It was weird. You are not a failure, you are rebuilding, right?
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