Horn95

I have been in turmoil for a couple of weeks. Relapsed badly. I am very afraid. I fear I am going to lose everything.

I just cannot get out of my own way. I have not seen my sponsor ina couple of weeks. I have to break it to him about my relapse. Dreading that.

I think I need to go into rehab. I feel doomed. I am so mad at myself.

fini

hey Horn,
you are not doomed.
take the actions, starting with getting back on track with sponsor and stepwork if that is the path you have chosen to follow.
good to see you back, Horn.

least

Rehab might be a good idea.

Worriedwifey88

Only thing to do is try again. Don’t stop trying, surround yourself with positive people and keep going. Everyone falls off and you just gotta keep working on it. #Mytwocents

ScottFromWI

You've got several good ideas there Horn. Call your sponsor and check out some rehab options around you. Being afraid is a natural and proper emotion to be feeling right now - you're literally playing games with your life. You know what do to - you just have to do it. Why not make today the first day of your new, better, sober life?

Dee74

I'm sorry you're still struggling Horn - but the sooner you follow one of those ideas through, the sooner you can move past the nightmare.

Rehab might be the way to get you started and get a few good ideas - then you can work out what to do from there

don't stint on your recovery work - you'll get back exactly what you put in

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Gabe1980

Hi Horn. I understand how tough it is starting over. But you can do this. Start putting the things in place you know work. I'm sure support from your sponsor will be a good place to start too. Best wishes to you. Gabe xx

Forward12

Rehab does sound like it would be a very solid option. I'd make some phone calls in the morning and see what arrangements can be made to get you into a facility and to put the madness down for good.

Nonsensical

Believing I was a victim kept me at the mercy of my addiction for a long long time.

Believing I could do something about it has served me much better.

Best of Luck on Your Journey!

tomsteve

I think I need to go into rehab good! i hope ya get into action lining it up before an excuse gets in the way-amy winehouse did that.

Ladysadie

Hey Horn, glad you're back. I was wondering if you were doing well. Just for today, pour your drink out, get on the phone and make your arrangements. Action plan, go forward with positive intentions - just for today you can do it! Sending you prayers and hugs.

lessgravity

Come on Horn. You've got plenty of us here rooting for you. You should have reached out before you picked up. You have the toolbox to get straight.

BDTL

Ok Horn you have a good plan in getting help in rehab. Start the ball rolling today so you can begin your healing process. Never ever give up as you really want to quit so hang in there. Let' s get this done because we're all pulling for you. You can do this partner!

thomas11

Bite the bullet Horn and go to rehab, it might save your life and your marriage and everything else. Surrender/acceptance, it becomes much easier. You're fighting what for most of us is a losing battle. Rooting for ya.

Dee74

Have you started over yet Horn?

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Horn95

Yep. It will be IOP. Then back to AA

Delilah1

That's excellent news, when do you start?

Rar

Excellent Horn! I'm sorry you relapsed, but really glad you're not giving up. Hang in there. When do you start IOP?

Horn95

I start the IOP on Monday. I am not drinking though.

yinzer

Way to go, Horn!