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Old 06-29-2018, 01:40 PM   #1 (permalink)
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voices want to wreak my marriage


voices are going to wreak my married i want to drink and die husband is tired he cant control me he tried to help me with distraction but the voices want to go to the bad christian forum the one that is anti LGBT i was on there the other day and it made me mixed up i keep asking for the password for the blocker but he will not let me am scared ill end my married am scared ill hurt myself or him smash things up there telling me to go in the bad forum they keep saying i have to kill myself if i dont there so loud i have my music on and there louder than the music my husband locked the door and i cant get out until tomorrow as its night time now we are at a point where he is wanting to self injure it will be my fault if he does if we break up i will kill myself with drink or drugs
i cant stay in control i cant call crisis team because it over a stupid forum they will think its stupid i cant do this i cant be with out him ill die
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Old 06-29-2018, 01:50 PM   #2 (permalink)
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The voices are lying to you, GrantMeSerenity. Any voice that tells you to harm yourself or others is unreal and untruthful. Your husband cares for you and wants to keep you safe.

We care for you, too. Stay close and keep talking to us.
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Old 06-29-2018, 01:58 PM   #3 (permalink)
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i got to die he's better off with out me
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Old 06-29-2018, 02:12 PM   #4 (permalink)
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No one is better of without you Serenity. Leigh is right, the voices are lying to you. Please call the crisis team and tell them how you are feeling, that is the important thing. The forum thing is secondary to your well-being.
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Call the crisis team. They will help no matter what because it’s their job.
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Old 06-29-2018, 02:43 PM   #6 (permalink)
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GMS, your husband is trying to help you. Going to an anti-LGBTQ website is only going to be hurtful and painful for you.

I'm so sorry about the voices, but I do think you should call the crisis line. They know what to do and they will not think it's a petty problem.
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can you turn your focus to something else beside the one thing that you are not allowed to do? you came here, that's good. what other positive things can you do besides dwell on the bad/negative stuff?

how are things going with veganism for example?
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Old 06-29-2018, 04:33 PM   #8 (permalink)
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Call the crisis team. Honey please do not hurt yourself. Just hold on until someone can get to you and your hubby. is your pastor handy? Please call someone.
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I think it is important to get help from the people who can help you with quieting the voices. I'm sorry the voices are so loud right now. Calling crisis will help.
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Old 06-29-2018, 05:57 PM   #10 (permalink)
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remember how good you felt last week. I think it's best to embrace who you are GMS.

An anti LGBT forum has absolutely nothing to offer you but pain and self hatred.

I know you and your husband have been through a lot and stayed strong. You'll get through this too

I also think you need to accept you need help with the voices.

Ask for professional help - tell them how serious it is?

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Medication can stop voices. I feel it is something to do with the drugs. Please seek professional help. I had voices Christmas Eve which led me to an overdose. It's avoidable if you seek help.
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Old 06-29-2018, 09:27 PM   #12 (permalink)
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GMS - You were so happy during pride day celebration. Try to think about what made you so happy that day. Do you have pictures you can look at to remind you what a good day that was for you?
Please don't hurt yourself.
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Morning GMS. I hope you are OK.
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managed to calm down your right i need to remember what i was doing when i was at pride i had a great time there loved it today i feel better just got to try and keep myself busy i dont need that forum i need it all got to keep remembering that i dont need it even when the voices are loud
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Old 06-30-2018, 05:17 AM   #15 (permalink)
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That's great news GMS!
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