voices want to wreak my marriage
voices are going to wreak my married i want to drink and die husband is tired he cant control me he tried to help me with distraction but the voices want to go to the bad christian forum the one that is anti LGBT i was on there the other day and it made me mixed up i keep asking for the password for the blocker but he will not let me am scared ill end my married am scared ill hurt myself or him smash things up there telling me to go in the bad forum they keep saying i have to kill myself if i dont there so loud i have my music on and there louder than the music my husband locked the door and i cant get out until tomorrow as its night time now we are at a point where he is wanting to self injure it will be my fault if he does if we break up i will kill myself with drink or drugs
i cant stay in control i cant call crisis team because it over a stupid forum they will think its stupid i cant do this i cant be with out him ill die