betterdays2018

So I"m new to this website, but not new to quiting.

Im a 29 year old male, and drinking has been wrecking my life for the last 12 years. I have tried to quit countless times. I always give up, so here I am.

I am a very lucky person, as I have a decent job and a beautiful wife. We have a bearded dragon and an ok place to live.

One of my.biggest problems with drinking.. I always "hide" it from her. I hide bottles of vodka in our place, so she never sees how much I really drink. I am embarrassed of it, but i always find myself walking to the liquor store for more.

I wish I could say I dont know how this all started Well, I do. I'm sure it's all a mental health thing. Alcohol gave me what I thought was confidence. All it really gave me was a false sense of everything.

Thats why, Im hopeful for better days in 2018.

Good luck to you all.

betterdays2018

part 2.

I have no idea where to go from here,

But i wish the best of luck to everyone, and anyone. I dont know of any worse feelibg than knowing that your partner cares avout you..... but after so many tries.. they let go.

I hope for you all that it doesnt get to that point.

betterdays2018

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BlownOne

Sometimes they do indeed let us go, and sometimes they have to, in order to get off the merry go round of insanity that we sometimes draw them into with our addiction or alcoholism. It's not fair to expect another person to love us while they watch us destroy ourselves from the inside out. It was hard lesson I had to learn myself, but when it happened I decided enough was enough. I wasn't going to lose anymore in my life because of alcoholism, so I asked for help, put my big boy pants on and did what they told me to do. Now I'm sober and productive. My life isn't perfect, but the hard things that come may way aren't self inflicted anymore. My life got much better when I quit shooting myself in the foot. Wishing you well.

Gottalife

What are you willing to do to get over this. Is there anything you are not willing to do?

january161992

how are you today betterdays2018 ?

its your job to help yourself by posting to let us know how youre doing ...

its our job to help ourselves by trying to be supportive of you helping yourself

Dee74

Welcome aboard better days - really glad to have you here

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