I didn't make it.
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Originally Posted by pocketpanda 
Thanks again for the support last night, everyone. I left the house last night. An AA meeting was starting nearby. But I also figured I'd go for one last time and hit the package store instead.
But ... I drove to the meeting. Telling myself I'd turn around if I couldn't do it. The parking lot was absolutely packed. I was stunned. The one AA meeting I went to last year (different location ad time) had like six people and they were miserable. Most were court ordered to be there.
This looked like a party.
Mustered up the courage and went in. That hour was life changing.
I didn't drink last night. And I have something else now I didn't have.
Hope.
I couldn't come back and **** around on the internet last night--even look here. Because that's too close to what I'd do when drinking in the evenings. I fed and walked my dogs. Watched some dorky TV, stayed up too late playing an iPad game and fell asleep.
Woke up late because the sleep was crappy. But no hangover.
Thank you for being here last night. All of you.
But ... I drove to the meeting. Telling myself I'd turn around if I couldn't do it. The parking lot was absolutely packed. I was stunned. The one AA meeting I went to last year (different location ad time) had like six people and they were miserable. Most were court ordered to be there.
This looked like a party.
Mustered up the courage and went in. That hour was life changing.
I didn't drink last night. And I have something else now I didn't have.
Hope.
I couldn't come back and **** around on the internet last night--even look here. Because that's too close to what I'd do when drinking in the evenings. I fed and walked my dogs. Watched some dorky TV, stayed up too late playing an iPad game and fell asleep.
Woke up late because the sleep was crappy. But no hangover.
Thank you for being here last night. All of you.
Hopefully this will be a regular Friday jaunt for you now.
I love my Friday night meetings as well. They have a really good feel to them.
BB x
Well done.
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Great job panda!! Way to duck that urge. I was the same way when i first tried AA. Except I caved a couple times. Somehow telling myself if I got the courage to go i could reward myself with wine. What??
I am excited to go back to some of the meetings i tried when I get home this week. I am not a fan of the recitations and chants at AA but I've met some really kind people with many clean years, full of advice and willingness to help. It's just going to have to be part of my recovery plan, chants aside. There's too much knowledge not to take advantage of it.
I am excited to go back to some of the meetings i tried when I get home this week. I am not a fan of the recitations and chants at AA but I've met some really kind people with many clean years, full of advice and willingness to help. It's just going to have to be part of my recovery plan, chants aside. There's too much knowledge not to take advantage of it.
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