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Old 01-27-2018, 07:34 PM
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Day 2 and I screwed up already

So I screwed up and I got drunk tonight. My wife and I went and got a new car too day which we were both so happy about. And my in laws wanted to take us out to celebrate which I knew before hand would mean alcohol would be invoked. I thought I could be strong but when beer got order. I just couldnít help my self and i drank and now as I write this Iím beyond drunk. And Iím miserable. I called my grandfather ( I always call someone different when Iím drunk ). He was a alcoholic for probably 40 years and just recently got clean. He acted like he didnít want anything to do with me. Heís always been like a hero to me. Iíve always looked up to him. And he acted like he didnít want anything to do with me. Weíve had bad blood for awhile. Do to when we worked together. But Iíve tried to mend it with him. But I fear that he will never forgive me. I just feel like Iíll never get him to love me agin . And itís really depressing. I just need someone to talk to. I feel so alone sometimes. Thanks to who ever reads this. God bless
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Old 01-27-2018, 07:45 PM
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Hey Unsteady

sorry you drank but I know you can get back on track.

I wouldn' worry too much about your grandfather - newly sober and getting a drunk call would make me a little stand offish too, y'know?

Ring him back again when you're sober and I bet it'll be different

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Old 01-27-2018, 07:49 PM
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Thanks dee. I just had a really great day and I felt great sober but when I screws up it was like a major hit to my ego. But Iím gonna start over tomorrow and do the best I can. I just crave my grandfathers love and I feel like Iíll never get it ever again.
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Old 01-27-2018, 07:53 PM
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Booze amplifies despair.
Things will look different tomorrow, I bet

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Old 01-27-2018, 07:55 PM
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Thank you so much. I feel like I just need to get away. I think Iím gonna plan a trip to Atlanta my wife and I can drive the new car up and eat a great meal and just have a weekend to reconnect and be together without booze. I think that will help
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doing normal things, even special normal things, helps
Given how you relapsed tho, any chance of a restaurant that doesn't serve booze ?
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Unfortunately being in the south there is beer or liquor at pretty much every restaurant. I just need to be strong and resist my AV. With my wifeís help I know I can do it
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Old 01-27-2018, 08:20 PM
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Sorry you slipped up and feel down. It's especially sad since you drank because you were in a good mood and celebrating! I did that all the time too. Don't beat yourself up. I agree that the family relationships will seem clearer when you're sober. But perhaps you also need to tell more people you are sober so they don't "treat" you to something so tempting next time? Just a thought

But the good news is you are here posting already. You'll get it next time!
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