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Old 01-08-2018, 12:30 PM
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out of my dam mind

So out of my dam mind right now
not taken anything not on anything at all but right now all i want to do is use cut or drink i have issues with my gender just f***** embarrassed myself on this forum by saying am a gay man WTF my husband trying to calm me down right now am angry at myself for posting crap like that
maybe i shouldn't be here anymore not on this forum and not in this life

maybe am a drama queen
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Old 01-08-2018, 12:37 PM
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We all say and do things we wish we hadn't....listen to your husband, he's helped you in these situations before. Cutting or using will only cause more problems now...just remember you are always welcome here.
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Old 01-08-2018, 12:52 PM
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GrantMeSerenity, This is a safe place for you and you always find support here. Please don't be upset with yourself.
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Old 01-08-2018, 12:56 PM
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Sorry you are suffering right now. Please don't worry about anything you have posted here. We are here to support one another.
Take care of yourself.
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Old 01-08-2018, 12:58 PM
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I've said so much in life I regret I can't even count the times.

As Anna said - we're all here to support each other through our troubles.
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Old 01-08-2018, 01:02 PM
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Please don't beat yourself up about your post, GrantMeSerenity. You're part of the SR family ... you belong here.

Gosh, we all have our moments... we're only human.
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Old 01-08-2018, 01:04 PM
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Old 01-08-2018, 01:04 PM
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Please don't go. We've all said and done things we regret on here and in real life. no one is critical here. We understand. Please don't drink or use though, that won't solve anything and just make you feel a whole lot worse in the morning.
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Old 01-08-2018, 01:15 PM
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thank you all ...gender confusion is kinda getting to me at the moment
i mean am someone who likes unicorns and teddies yet there are times where i want to dress in male clothes other times i want to be a third gender other times full female dealing with this for a long time been going back and forth with what dont help is that i have Borderline Personality Disorder and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and other mental health problems ( just noticed i haven't taken my night meds ) i sometimes go from one faith to another because of this unsure if its the symptoms of my illness or me actually being transgender
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Old 01-08-2018, 01:23 PM
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Originally Posted by GrantMeSerenity View Post
thank you all ...gender confusion is kinda getting to me at the moment
i mean am someone who likes unicorns and teddies yet there are times where i want to dress in male clothes other times i want to be a third gender other times full female dealing with this for a long time been going back and forth with what dont help is that i have Borderline Personality Disorder and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and other mental health problems ( just noticed i haven't taken my night meds ) i sometimes go from one faith to another because of this unsure if its the symptoms of my illness or me actually being transgender
All of that is accepted here. That's why we're all here. We don't judge so, why should you judge yourself?

Be yourself. In all your questioning, be yourself.
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Old 01-08-2018, 01:40 PM
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i have a go at myself all the time call myself name i hate who i am yet i ask for help for me to be honest if it wasn't for my husband i wouldn't be here
i dont know who myself is and thats why i need help with discovery myself am going for counselling but there is a waiting list am in Scotland and its not on the NHS but there is a list for people wanting this type of counselling
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Old 01-08-2018, 01:52 PM
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Thank you all for your support i feel so loved here sometimes i have problems with seeing that am worth anything but i know am worth something in others eyes so i am worth something
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PnzlG5NYT8M

This link is a video about what we tell ourselves and what we would say to our younger self. I hope it might help you. It's good.
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Old 01-08-2018, 02:32 PM
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thank you for posting that video its helped normally i wouldn't look at pictures of me because its about the past that little girl that in the photos make me feel sad because that little girl needed protected and she wasnt sometimes i think its must have been something i did wrong to make the bad things happen i dont think i did anything wrong but from flashbacks and nightmares and my sister saying things happened i dont know anything apart from that
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Old 01-08-2018, 02:35 PM
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Hi GSM

the one thing I love about SR is I feel like I belong here.
Thanks for reminding of that

I've made some posting errors in the past too but people just accept it - they understand

I really hope you feel that way too.

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Am off to meditate and pray then get to bed see ya all in the morning
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Old 01-08-2018, 05:37 PM
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We'll be here, GrantMeSerenity. Hope you get a good sleep.
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You are among friends here, GrantMeSerenity - friends who care about you.

Trust your husband; he seems to have always been there for you.

Stay close.
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