I can't do this anymore...
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Glad you made it to a meeting. Something to add about your hubby.. I don't mean to sound harsh...BUT... This is your recovery/life to manage, not your husbands. He's probably fed up with the hospital trips,broken promises, 'failed attempts',ect..(my inner 'circle' was)... This is solely on your shoulders to do. No one is going to save you,but you and your actions to recovery work. I really hope you find your way,dear. It's work,but it's easy work compared to the daily thoughts/actions drinking brings with it. Hang in there!
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I am sure you're right. He needs to see some real action from me in order to start trusting me again. The fact that he is even still here and hasn't run for the hills is amazing. Yes, it IS my recovery and the work is MINE to do. I cant change the past, but i am ready for a better future.
I am sure you're right. He needs to see some real action from me in order to start trusting me again. The fact that he is even still here and hasn't run for the hills is amazing. Yes, it IS my recovery and the work is MINE to do. I cant change the past, but i am ready for a better future.
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I will be discussing it with my IOP counselor tomorrow. I still have another 2 weeks in IOP, 3 meetings a week, 3 hours each. They may want me to complete that first, for insurance requirements 🙄😧 i can not afford to pay for it out of pocket or i would have been knocking down their door this morning.
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I will be discussing it with my IOP counselor tomorrow. I still have another 2 weeks in IOP, 3 meetings a week, 3 hours each. They may want me to complete that first, for insurance requirements 🙄😧 i can not afford to pay for it out of pocket or i would have been knocking down their door this morning.
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The absolute last thing I want today is to drink. Its tomorrow or the next day I am worried about. When the guilt and the shame start to fade and physically I feel better...and I think whats one drink...even though its NEVER one. But I fully plan to come back and read my first post on this thread at LEAST once a day, and any time I am feeling weak. At first I wished I hadn't posted it, but you know what? I am glad I did. Its a great reminder of a place I NEVER want to be again.
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