This is so frustrating
This is so frustrating
I'm back here again. 16 hours in. I don't really know how many days straight that I drink. I think 11. I got caught drinking at work and it really embarrassed me, so I once again, quit before I could get fired and tried to check into detox. However, they didn't have a bed until, January. My boss doesn't want me to quit, but I am way too embarrassed to face my coworkers. I squandered Lord knows how much money, and did questionable things sexually with random people I met off Craigslist. This has got to end, I've literally quit like 9 jobs while under the influence of alcohol. This has been manifesting itself for 3 years. I've been reading here since 2 am and of course, it's hitting me hard. Trying to eat, but my stomach hurts so bad. Took a shower for the first time since Monday and my scalp is so dry it's literally flaking off. I don't have a lot of feeling in my hands and feet and am having some vision problems. I'm just frustrated with how I continue to live and how irresponsible I've become over the last 3 years. Sorry, I just feel pretty helpless right now.
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Hang in there! It does get better. Just remember that we don't shoot our wounded and we will always welcome you back with open arms. : )
Have you thought about putting a recovery plan in place? Maybe AA?
Garrison
Have you thought about putting a recovery plan in place? Maybe AA?
Garrison
I understand. Can you focus just on today? That is what you have in front of you right now. As Alcoholics its easy to look into the future and self sabotage ourselves. What do you have planned today to stay sober?
Welcome back Pajan. Have you considered contacting your local AA chapter or another recovery group? You cannot change what you've done but you can make choices today that will help you get better.
The anxiety is pretty common for withdrawals, especially after such a long bender. WD's can get progressively worse each time as well, so please make sure you have someone local/nearby you can call on if you need help.
I would not rule out calling your local AA hotline anyway, it would be helpful to have someone to talk to and perhaps let you know about other local resources.
I would not rule out calling your local AA hotline anyway, it would be helpful to have someone to talk to and perhaps let you know about other local resources.
If you have a family member or friend you can call to come help you, please do. I did my last withdrawal alone and it was a nightmare. Even if you just have them bring you the gatorade/food/whatever you need, let them help if you have someone. I took myself to the store through the shakes, etc last time, and probably shouldn't have been out in public for any reason other than the hospital or an AA meeting. Just remember in a few days it will be better than you feel right now, even tomorrow at this time it will be. The anxiety is the worst for me so I totally understand. I'm here if you need someone to talk to
I went and got food and Gatorade. You're right shouldn't have gone out it was terrifying. I was so jumpy. This is gonna be mentally hard for me in the next few weeks so I defiantly need a plan.
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