Rodney18

Since I’m digging this site, and I have stopped drinking, I’ve done loads of thinking instead
Since my childhood, I’ve had intense anxiety
It’s come and left throughout my life
I’ve drank a bit as a kid and lots more as an adult
My anxiety stems from childhood abuse, I do know this
I’ve self-medicated yet gone years with hardly a drink, only to go back hard on boozing
Vicious cycle
Well, since this is truly the only time I’ve ever attempted quitting, I’ve really did some thinking
I’ve come up with the fact that I must deal with my emotional issues without the crutch of alcohol
And I’m finally doing just that
Sure is rough
and that’s probably why I ignored the painful issues and just poured in my temporary solution
Does this make sense to any of y’all?
Because I’m flying by the seat of my pants here

least

Yes, that makes sense. Lots of us medicated our troubles away with alcohol (or other drugs). Can you see a counselor? That's what I did, for about 6 yrs, and it helped a lot.

Rodney18

Yep
Got a good one, I believe
Saw him initially and tomorrow we really begin
I wanted to make sure I was ready so I delved deep and now I’m admitting to myself the genesis of my problem

Verdantia

It does make sense; I am autistic, was sexually abused as a toddler and endured an emotionally abusive childhood. My first drink was at age 16 and I loved it immediately; it relaxed me and took away the crippling anxiety--for a bit. This relief came at a very steep price, though. I am working through my issues with a therapist who is definitely helping me-I am glad you are seeing someone.

Rodney18

I’m very sorry for what you went through
I’m just now consciously addressing this and I thank you for the response