23 Days Sober, the struggle is real
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23 Days Sober, the struggle is real
The past 21 days went by so fast. So happy I to be sober, alert, and just...content. Then the familiar thoughts started to creep in. The same depressing thoughts that made me want to drink in the first place. My bf brought up the things that happened the last time I drank 23 days ago this weekend and I feel like he won't let me move on. I understand his side but it was still a low blow. This is getting harder but I don't want to give up.
It is hard to move beyond past mistakes. Have you and your boyfriend talked about what happened 23 days ago already? Have you both tried to understand the other person's feelings? It's understandable that your boyfriend is concerned about you drinking again, but at the same time, if he will not or cannot forgive you, then it creates a situation that is very unhealthy for you.
Congratulations on 21 days sober.
Congratulations on 21 days sober.
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We talked about and I listened to everything he had to say. I let him vent and took it becasue I knew I was at fault. This weekend he was mad and wouldn't tell me why. He later tells me it was because of what happened 23 days ago and that it is all my fault. I don't know if this is part of becoming sober, to have to hear about past mistakes or if this is something else entirely.
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i just joined today!
I hear ya, my gf has been keeping me at arms length but gives hints she wants us to work. I literally just got out of treatment yesterday. Im trying to understand her feelings but I'm trying to move forward with her and not dwell on the past.
I hear ya, my gf has been keeping me at arms length but gives hints she wants us to work. I literally just got out of treatment yesterday. Im trying to understand her feelings but I'm trying to move forward with her and not dwell on the past.
The past 21 days went by so fast. So happy I to be sober, alert, and just...content. Then the familiar thoughts started to creep in. The same depressing thoughts that made me want to drink in the first place. My bf brought up the things that happened the last time I drank 23 days ago this weekend and I feel like he won't let me move on. I understand his side but it was still a low blow. This is getting harder but I don't want to give up.
Maybe he's worried you'll drink again and it could happen again. It might be worth trying to understand how he feels if you want to be able to work past this together.
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Thank you guys, I agree with all of you. I have kept my promise to not drink and have accepted responsibility for my behavior. I told him I would give him space because I want to maintain my sobriety. Since he can't offer me support it warms my heart that I can always come here and receive helpful advice.
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He is suppose to be going to AA meetings. I've gone to one with him in the past and offered to go to more with him. We've worked on our issue and everything was fine until a few days ago but I can respect the fact that people need time to heal.
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Maybe him and I need to go to AlAnon lol. He is court ordered to go for himself.
Last edited by BellRene; 11-06-2017 at 11:32 AM. Reason: Submitted before finished
Ahhh.
Well if he's dealing with trying to get sober himself then he's in even less of a position to deal with whatever happened on your last drunk.
And yes, there's plenty of double winners where AA and AlAnon is concerned. You could both go to both lol.
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Well if he's dealing with trying to get sober himself then he's in even less of a position to deal with whatever happened on your last drunk.
And yes, there's plenty of double winners where AA and AlAnon is concerned. You could both go to both lol.
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Maybe hitting some meetings together would be helpful. Ultimately we have to get sober for ourselves, though. Things will only get better with continued sobriety. There is nothing that alcohol will not make a hundred times worse. Best wishes in your sober journey, BellRene.
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