BrightenMeUp

Welcome waxfruit!
I've only been here a couple days and this place and its members have helped me tremendously to get to 8 days. Stick around, hang in there, and keep reading. Some really good stuff

waxfruit

unfortunately I live in an unusual situation. The stress and this home is quite toxic. I usually eat when everyone is asleep. But- I have been drinking water and had a Gatorade and amultivitamin. :-) .
Things are swiftly changing and I will soon be out of here. It is life and death for me. For all of us really. I truly have to do this now and I want it as well. .

waxfruit

Thank You brighten Me Up. Great name. We can do this!!!!

waxfruit

Thank You ��

biminiblue

Well, just try to stay calm as much as possible regardless of your living situation.

Are you physically in any danger at all? If so, don't hesitate to call police or a Domestic Violence helpline.

waxfruit

Classical music. It's soothing.
Also, if anyone reads this, altho I haven't stayed sober these past months, I think what has kept me going was volunteering at an animal shelter. Find what you love and give back to it. I believe it saved my life.
@bimi not so much physical. A controlling and mentally abusive environment.
This music is perfect.

biminiblue

I think there is a "new age" channel, too. I prefer the classical instrumental or classical piano stuff. It's suppose to be good for regulating brain activity. Sounds good, right?

I used to volunteer at an animal shelter - for about seven years I did that. Bless you for giving back to the animals, and I agree it is super helpful and therapeutic. I still have a shelter-kitty. I love him.

waxfruit

It's kind of fun to type away anonymously. Although I am firm believer that the shame needs be taken away from the game so people can ask for help without feeling -shame.

biminiblue

I like this forum. So many good people here - and so much wisdom.

If you find yourself awake at 2AM, take a look through some of the sub forums, especially the Mental Health/Anxiety one and the Spirituality one. Lots of good stuff.

I love the Earth Prayers thread in Spirituality:

https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...-part-2-a.html

biminiblue

p.s. shame is over-rated.

waxfruit

This is a crucial time in my life. I lost my business two years ago, and have soul
searched, thus ending up at the animal shelter and have been extended a job. I need to do this. I really love working with animals.

waxfruit

Chances are I will be up at 2am. I'm still learning to navigate on this site. So glad I took that leap of faith.
And yes, shame is way overrated .

Bird615

Welcome, waxfruit!

waxfruit

I simply want to say thank you all for your responses, kindness, and advice tonight. I seriously have tears streaming down my cheeks. I didn't think anyone was going to respond and even better, they were all great responses, suggestions and advice.
I'll be checking in tomorrow, as I will be heading back to work and I'm pretty scared. I just want everyone to stop wondering what's happening to me- sick all the time.
All will be well. Oh, and why is everyone dreaming? I haven't been dreaming.
Could it be the melatonin I'm taking? It's not working, but it may be helping ?
Who knows......

biminiblue

haha. Melatonin gave me the creepiest scariest nightmares I've ever had.

Nope. I'm glad you can take it - it's not for me! I had nightmares all the time when I was drinking, but after about three months sober, I haven't remembered very many dreams at all. Fine with me. I sleep like a log.

May you have a workday tomorrow where everything goes the way it's supposed to go.