Welcome, and I hope that you can regain your balance. Please continue to read and post.
In case you're interested, our reading list has some great books on Eating Disorders:
Johnston, Kristen Guts
Knapp, Caroline Appetites: Why Women Want
Wilson, Carnie Gut Feeling
Fonda, Jane My Life So Far
Gold, Tracy Room To Grow
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.