Coming back
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Coming back
Was helping the kids with their homework earlier and I suddenly remembered this old lady that used to live opposite my home when I was kid. Don't know why I thought about her, haven't thought about her for years. More than that, it's like I had completely forgotten she ever existed.
Suddenly all these memories came back, leading from one to another to another. I remembered that my brother and I used to walk down to the shops on Saturday afternoons and buy this old lady her groceries. I remembered she used to let us buy sweets with the change. I remembered we used to deliver her shopping and then come home and watch the A Team whilst eating the sweets.
These memories are so vivid and real, I wonder where they've been all these years. I didn't realise it at the time but whilst it was taking control of my mind, alcohol was locking memories away. But these memories aren't gone, sobriety is slowly setting them free.
The specifics of the memory... the sweets and the A team - none of that matters. What matters is that I'd forgotten my brother and I used to be best friends. I just phoned him. He remembers all those Saturday afternoons. We had a really great chat.
I feel like I'm coming back.
Suddenly all these memories came back, leading from one to another to another. I remembered that my brother and I used to walk down to the shops on Saturday afternoons and buy this old lady her groceries. I remembered she used to let us buy sweets with the change. I remembered we used to deliver her shopping and then come home and watch the A Team whilst eating the sweets.
These memories are so vivid and real, I wonder where they've been all these years. I didn't realise it at the time but whilst it was taking control of my mind, alcohol was locking memories away. But these memories aren't gone, sobriety is slowly setting them free.
The specifics of the memory... the sweets and the A team - none of that matters. What matters is that I'd forgotten my brother and I used to be best friends. I just phoned him. He remembers all those Saturday afternoons. We had a really great chat.
I feel like I'm coming back.
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Thanks everyone. Every day I seem to be discovering yet another advantage of staying sober.
I wish I wasn't alcoholic, life would be easier if I wasn't. But seeing as I am, I might as well look for the positives. If I wasn't alcoholic I wouldn't get to experience the daily awesomeness of recovery. And being an alcoholic in recovery means I get the chance to become the person I was always supposed to be. That's pretty amazing. Thanks for reading
I wish I wasn't alcoholic, life would be easier if I wasn't. But seeing as I am, I might as well look for the positives. If I wasn't alcoholic I wouldn't get to experience the daily awesomeness of recovery. And being an alcoholic in recovery means I get the chance to become the person I was always supposed to be. That's pretty amazing. Thanks for reading
What a wonderful story, Kenton. Beautiful. Thank you for sharing it! Simple pleasures have so much more poignancy and beauty now. I am realizing more and more how deeply everything, even the smallest things .. were dulled by alcohol.
May the unexpected blessings keep coming for you!
May the unexpected blessings keep coming for you!
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I'm remembering things too!
I know this post is several months old but I had to add: this is happening to me too! Memories are being unlocked and set free that alcohol has held hostage. It hurts our long-term and shirt term memory. I love this post, that memory recovery is happening for us, and how amazing sobriety is!!
Thanks for posting, Kenton!!
Thanks for posting, Kenton!!
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