SoberLeigh

The Victory of Recovery

Recovery beckons from the horizons
As grief kindly, slowly softens
Subtle rays of hope and optimism
Intensify ~ shatter agony’s prisms

Vitality sprouts from dormant gardens
As springs of kindness nurture ~ softly christen
Tender shoots of reclaimed spirit
Strengthen, grow ~ shed misery’s thicket

Inspiration stirs in caverns ~ in deep recesses of the mind
As thoughts and visions focus ~ weave and wrap ~ become entwined
Scattered pieces ~ jagged shards of memory’s puzzle
Assemble, merge ~break nightmare’s cycle

Courage taunts with its opponent
As fortitude and righteousness form battle’s garment
Valor and brawn take up mutual fortress
Seek out enmity ~ weaken, destroy, redress

Individuality seeks out anonymity
As character and strength bid up their ante
Conviction and identity form alliance
Attain compassion ~ heightened conscience

Harmony silences notes of discord
As tranquility and peace calm warring drums
Melodies and songs of hope and promise
All are proof positive ~ I have won.

Dee74

Great decision weev1l!

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ExhaustedPigeon

Go Weev! I'm cheering for you!!!!!

SoberLeigh

How are you today, Weev?

SoberLeigh

Thinking of you, Weev.

WeaverBird

so sorry Sober and the rest of you guys. Slept w/married man and got drunk after. I knew what'd mean but I did it anyway. Thick.
Landlord didn't turn up btw.
Just done dance class and sitting here knowing this could set of a binge and I never know how long they'll be five weeks last one, two months the one before that.
I could go to a meeting in an hour but sweaty betty.
F--k

Soberwolf

Definitely go to the meeting Weev it's happened nothing more you can do apart from learn from this & move forward

WeaverBird

Thanks Wolf. Walking there now. Those meetings get in the way of yr drinking.

Steely

I did same last Wednesday, drink that is, feel thick too but let's move forward as advised, and through our own self counsel. Well done on ditching the 2 inches though. Two inches makes for a mile of misery.

WeaverBird

Thanks Steely we'll both get less thick if we keep off the booze. Well, I hope. I'm not the brightest!
I've got to see a friend later who drinks like a fish. I thought I might close down another road to the drink and say I'm an alcoholic. That'll be a risk.
Good luck Steely

MsCooterBrown

What Weev? Why do you have to see your fish drinking friend? I went thru the whole self talk wtf am I thinking thing last night. Saw a picture posted with all my "friends" that drink like fish and didn't join them. I know it isn't for everyone but I can't be around bars...liquor stores...anything that remotely suggests alcohol. I have had a few relapses myself. I need this time for working on me...in order to do that I had to rethink everything I used to do that got me to this point. For now...isolation works. Hang in there. Each of us have our own way of what works for us.

Steely

I wouldn't go swimming with the fish weev, and I didn't always think that way. Thought I could just drink soft drink, but then the company became very boring, and anxiety provoking. Drunken fish drown

As an afterthought I make it a bit of a mission of mine to feel no/little shame in telling people that I don't drink, and am *alcoholic* it reminds me too much of the moral judgementalism that has existed for far too long. I am always honest with doctors too. I really want for *alcohol dependence* to be viewed in exactly the same way as any other health problem.

Went to a party (before my relapse) and a man offered me a drink which I declined. Told him I had a problem with alcohol and at first he thought I was half joking. I told him the truth, and he replied that he was even prouder of me now. And I could tell that he meant it. It made me feel proud of me too. Be proud baby.

SoberLeigh

Great job on the meeting, Weev. Let us know how it goes.

Hope that you ditch the meet-up with the fish. It's so not worth the risk.

Dee74

Welcome back Weev1l

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Steely

How'd you go weev? Whichever way it went there'll be a lesson in it somewhere, and that's a good thing. Wishing you the best too weev.

Steely

Hope that you ditch the meet-up with the fish. It's so not worth the risk.[/QUOTE]

That line was very poetic SoberLeigh. Can't resist the poet in a person. Hope you are doing well. Your Sister in Arms, Steely. x

WeaverBird

I want to be honest w/everyone. Not sure it helps anyone to hear I stop and then start drinking. Perhaps I should wait till I'm sober to post. (Have to wait a long time?)
I'd never watched someone get paralytically drunk outside me - did last night. Repeating things, drinking secretly in the kitchen and on and on. I listened to the big fight in the radio at one point and nobody even noticed. I didn't like it there much. I was driving so finished the job when I got home.
My head's not right. I kinda know what's good for me when I'm sober and make a plan but then I do the wrong thing anyway. A bit confused why I do that. There's drinking smoking men food money.
Getting the idea after reading here I might not have participated in my life ever. Horrible.
Since all I am is a human-shaped bottle of vodka, today is stretching out in front of me empty.

Soberwolf

Don't give up Weev stick around especially now don't let your AV (addiction) tell you otherwise

head up & try again brother

SoberLeigh

Stay close; Weev.

There's an exponentially better way to live.

We are here for you.

SoberLeigh

That line was very poetic SoberLeigh. Can't resist the poet in a person. Hope you are doing well. Your Sister in Arms, Steely. x[/QUOTE]

Hope that you are doing well, too, Steely - it is wonderful to see you.