I can't stop drinking.
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Originally Posted by noneever 
Had intrusive thoughts of drinking after work, but I just observed the thoughts and didn't get into a discussion or argument about whether or not to drink. It's not an option... I will never drink alcohol again and I will never change my mind.
Now what?
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Originally Posted by noneever
I'm unsure about rehab. I KNOW I'm going to be told it's 'denial' speaking, but my gut instinct is that it's not the right fit for me. I want to focus on living well, sleeping and eating and doing yoga and meditating. Being with my kids. Being present and mindful. I don't want to be surrounded by other addicts, rehashing the guilt and shame. I'm done with alcohol. I will never drink alcohol again and I will never change my mind.
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Algorithm- I'll be rereading the AVRT threads after work today. I had read them maybe 6 months ago but obviously the AV got in the way.
My plan:
AVRT
SR
Journaling
Yoga and meditation
Get back to the gym.
Live.
If I am practicing AVRT then meetings like AA or Smart Recovery are out.
My plan:
AVRT
SR
Journaling
Yoga and meditation
Get back to the gym.
Live.
If I am practicing AVRT then meetings like AA or Smart Recovery are out.
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Thought I'd update here periodically as a way of keeping track. Another way to journal I guess.
Anyway, I haven't had any alcohol for the past 4 nights. I had an aggravating day today, where typically I'd have turned to alcohol, but it's simply not an option anymore. My AV sparked up once or twice this evening but I was able to simply observe it and move on. I made some chai and the ritual of making and drinking it was really quite soothing. I've been meditating every day, first thing in the morning and just before bed. I'm recognising when I'm hungry or thirsty and eating and drinking. Simple things that are making a big difference to my mood and energy levels.
Anyway, I haven't had any alcohol for the past 4 nights. I had an aggravating day today, where typically I'd have turned to alcohol, but it's simply not an option anymore. My AV sparked up once or twice this evening but I was able to simply observe it and move on. I made some chai and the ritual of making and drinking it was really quite soothing. I've been meditating every day, first thing in the morning and just before bed. I'm recognising when I'm hungry or thirsty and eating and drinking. Simple things that are making a big difference to my mood and energy levels.
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Join Date: Mar 2017
Location: UK
Posts: 21
Originally Posted by noneever
Thought I'd update here periodically as a way of keeping track. Another way to journal I guess.
Anyway, I haven't had any alcohol for the past 4 nights. I had an aggravating day today, where typically I'd have turned to alcohol, but it's simply not an option anymore. My AV sparked up once or twice this evening but I was able to simply observe it and move on. I made some chai and the ritual of making and drinking it was really quite soothing. I've been meditating every day, first thing in the morning and just before bed. I'm recognising when I'm hungry or thirsty and eating and drinking. Simple things that are making a big difference to my mood and energy levels.
Anyway, I haven't had any alcohol for the past 4 nights. I had an aggravating day today, where typically I'd have turned to alcohol, but it's simply not an option anymore. My AV sparked up once or twice this evening but I was able to simply observe it and move on. I made some chai and the ritual of making and drinking it was really quite soothing. I've been meditating every day, first thing in the morning and just before bed. I'm recognising when I'm hungry or thirsty and eating and drinking. Simple things that are making a big difference to my mood and energy levels.
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Originally Posted by noneever
I made some chai and the ritual of making and drinking it was really quite soothing.
I look forward to your updates, noneever
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non-e - my 'gut instinct' was such a natural feeling, but it was dysfunctional thoughts based on emotional immaturity going back years with my addicted brain running back to booze. Detox and rehab are hard- yes. BUT they work. I avoided rehab, and it took far more serious life consequences before I worked out the obvious. Please think about it. A little bit of work now can truly make a difference.
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