Delilah1

Hi Em,

Welcome to SR! You will find lots of support on here. I looked at recovery as the chance to make me a healthier me. I stopped drinking, focused on eating healthier (although that has been a struggle the past week or two) and I've been exercising.

I am also working on mindfulness, this is the area I still need the most work in.

Sounds like alcohol is having a negative impact on your life. I the beginning some nights may be difficult but you will never wake up and regret notdrinkingthenight before.

Em24

Thanks for all the info

I practice mindfulness as I had CBT for OCD a while back. I know how much it can help, it's just so much effort sometimes isn't it? It's so easy to just slump back and feel sorry for myself!

I think for me my problem is not loving myself. I know that sounds sooo cheesy! But I drink to feel confident, I eat because I feel **** about myself and I had eating disorders because I wasn't happy with the way I looked.

I don't want to look back on my 20's with regret, I'm not living or enjoying my life to the fullest. All because I over judge myself. I don't look people in the eye when out and about because I think they will be thinking 'whats that fat bitch looking at?!'

PhoenixJ

I would never do that. You deserve respect and support as all do. Do not be so hard on yourself- keep trying. Keep posting. PJ