Introducing myself
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Introducing myself
Hey there, everyone. I have been reading the threads in this forum for some time now, and this morning decided to take the next step and make an account, introduce myself, and get more involved.
Like most or all of you, I have a problem with alcohol. From the first time I tried it, I've abused it. I drink to get DRUNK. Moderation has zero appeal. I've never needed a reason to drink, although finding them is easy enough. In many ways, alcohol has been a reliable companion - it always knows how to quiet my overthinking mind, amplify good moods, and dull bad ones.
Now, however, I see the path I am headed down. I've read enough, and know myself well enough, to see that this can only end badly and that I'm not all that far off from it. When I take a step back, I can see that I am undoubtedly making "progress" - of the bad variety - with my drinking.
So, I believe the time is right to permanently part ways with alcohol. I don't say this lightly, because it is a tremendously hard reality to face, albeit one that I have carefully considered. Alcohol has been a major part of my life for 16 years - not quite half of all of them - and a 16 year relationship, toxic as it might be, is hard to let go of.
I believe I am aware of the challenges of "walking the walk," so to speak, and am working on putting together a toolbox, or plan, to help me. One tool is getting more involved here, which I expect will make me feel more accountable. A small tool, but who knows what might be the difference maker some day. Whatever tools I use and whatever plan I follow, it is my intention to never be back at "day one."
I'll wrap this up by saying that I have mixed emotions, and I would be kidding myself if I said otherwise. I will mourn the loss of a long term relationship, and I am disappointed that I've proven incapable of being a "normal" drinker. But I truly look forward to all of the good that will come with parting ways with alcohol, and am excited about this next phase in my life.
Thanks for reading.
Like most or all of you, I have a problem with alcohol. From the first time I tried it, I've abused it. I drink to get DRUNK. Moderation has zero appeal. I've never needed a reason to drink, although finding them is easy enough. In many ways, alcohol has been a reliable companion - it always knows how to quiet my overthinking mind, amplify good moods, and dull bad ones.
Now, however, I see the path I am headed down. I've read enough, and know myself well enough, to see that this can only end badly and that I'm not all that far off from it. When I take a step back, I can see that I am undoubtedly making "progress" - of the bad variety - with my drinking.
So, I believe the time is right to permanently part ways with alcohol. I don't say this lightly, because it is a tremendously hard reality to face, albeit one that I have carefully considered. Alcohol has been a major part of my life for 16 years - not quite half of all of them - and a 16 year relationship, toxic as it might be, is hard to let go of.
I believe I am aware of the challenges of "walking the walk," so to speak, and am working on putting together a toolbox, or plan, to help me. One tool is getting more involved here, which I expect will make me feel more accountable. A small tool, but who knows what might be the difference maker some day. Whatever tools I use and whatever plan I follow, it is my intention to never be back at "day one."
I'll wrap this up by saying that I have mixed emotions, and I would be kidding myself if I said otherwise. I will mourn the loss of a long term relationship, and I am disappointed that I've proven incapable of being a "normal" drinker. But I truly look forward to all of the good that will come with parting ways with alcohol, and am excited about this next phase in my life.
Thanks for reading.
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welcome.... and congratulations on taking that hard first step of owning up to the reality of your relationship with alcohol.
I hope you can fully embrace sobriety and avoid letting that 16 years turn into 26..... or more.
I sure wish I'd gotten serious about sobriety that long ago, and saved myself many more years of hurt and shame and regret and wasted opportunity. I'm deeply grateful that I finally did embrace sobriety though, and I can tell you it has been nothing but BETTER
welcome aboard!
I hope you can fully embrace sobriety and avoid letting that 16 years turn into 26..... or more.
I sure wish I'd gotten serious about sobriety that long ago, and saved myself many more years of hurt and shame and regret and wasted opportunity. I'm deeply grateful that I finally did embrace sobriety though, and I can tell you it has been nothing but BETTER
welcome aboard!
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Hi MC - good to meet you and glad you have made such a great decision and decided the time is right to make the changes necessary - you sound like you have a good understanding of what is required and what is most definitely necessary- as Free Owl said do yourself a favour and don't waste any more time - it really is the best gift you could ever give yourself, it really is life changing and most definitely for the better.
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Welcome.
Yes, making a plan is a good start. Dee's thread has some great links on it that might help you, as they have helped many others... http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...y-plans-1.html
Wishing you all the best for your recovery. BB
Yes, making a plan is a good start. Dee's thread has some great links on it that might help you, as they have helped many others... http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...y-plans-1.html
Wishing you all the best for your recovery. BB
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Welcome, and you've made a good choice in your life.
Yes, it's a good idea to come up with a plan that will wok for you. And, coming here every day is a good part of anyone's plan.
Yes, it's a good idea to come up with a plan that will wok for you. And, coming here every day is a good part of anyone's plan.
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Welcome, MC. I wish I had quit at your age. It definitely gets more difficult the older you get. Hopefully, physical addiction hasn't set in for you yet. If not, count yourself lucky and get off this roller coaster before it does. Hope to see you around.
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